my mind goes blank..

...whenever I think of the life after student-life.Which includes everything.

The wedding, the after wedding, the responsibilities as a wife, the work, the juggling btwn work & wifey duty, work , work, work..

OK, the work part is unimaginable. As a student, I have been going to hospital almost everyday for the past 3years. But it is not enough to give the clear picture what housemanship is all about .. DUH ! all we do is take case, present case, and study. JUST A CASE daily. Housemen usually take 20cases per day? or 50 ++ in outpatient? darn, i really don't know.

It is fun to graduate. To hear people call you doctor & congratulate for your 5years achievement. But actual speaking, it is a huge responsibilities. Handling lives are not as easy as handling money, computer, cars, pen & papers. You and me are a living object. We breathe, we grow, we live, we think, we remember and we have emotions.

But beneath all the scary eery feelings, it is still exciting to actually handle lives. Feels heroic ;))

I often think on how life would be after working. But nothing come to the picture. except for a big Question mark.

I'm not perfect, but I aim for perfections. Hence , I do plan for this and that but when it comes to life when working.. I could only HOPE. and pray ofcourse. For His eternal best most guidance & help.

What I hope is,, to be a good doctor and a good wife. A good daughter to both families and a good mother in future. These are my hopes. Words sounded so BIG with no clear picture in it. NO CLEAR PICTURE AT ALL..

Dr. Fadzilah Kamsah mentioned before. To aim for something, you have to have a clear picture. eg : I should say I want to be a good daughter by learning how to cook , rather than I want to be a good daughter. COOK is a picture. GOOD is not a picture.

hahaha! NOW, I can't give the clear picture. Because I have not experience most of the hopes except for being a daughter of Effandie & Khadijah.

There's a quote saying, "you will not know the depth of the sea until you enter the sea" .. I will not know what I will go through in future and how to handle them until I am in it.

Let's hope for the best , shall we ;))

aku suka tomyam, tapi malam tadi.....

I am a Malay Malaysian and OBVIOUSLY my taste buds are for Malay food. My friends and I would usually prefer to go to Malay restaurant for Dinner on weekdays in Melacca.

Today on 27th December 2010, my friend & I went to this place in Melaka called R&K restaurant for their famous satay specially cooked with somekind of special method. I'm a big fat fan of satays FYI ! so YEAH, i'd agreed to go there for dinner .. for the satay.

The place is nice from outside. Clean, big, proper chairs and tables , unlike the normal warongs by the road side.

So we ordered SATAY. and yes, satay was great there.. I wouldn't give score of 10/10 but it was one of the best. Prolly 7/10.

And we ordered our dinner too ! I ordered tomyam daging. My friends ordered sotong masak merah , udang sambal and ayam masak pedas.

THE FOOD WAS HORRIBLE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

my tomyam tasted like asam laksa magii with cili padi added into it. REALLY REALLY SOUR + REALLY REALLY SPICY .. really really tak sedap !
ok the spicy part I am emphasizing more because it really tasted just spicy ! you know when a spicy food is nice because they have other tastes as well? but this one is TOO SPICY and SOUR. omg ! I took a sipped, my stomach ache thousands !

Mind you, I usually can tolerate tomyams because they are my favourite dish ! even how bad the spicy is, I WILL TOLERATE BECAUSE THEY ARE TASTY. but if spicy and non palatable, I definitely can't tolerate..

I tasted my friends and they are almost the same ! the sambal udang tasted exactly like the SAMBAL PASTE from the bottle, that they pour into a cooking pan, and added udang in it.. taadaaa -- they called that sambal udang ! ! ! horrribbbleeeeee... it is spicy with a stinging sensation . eeeeeeeeeee !

and the ayam masak pedas, tasted hangus.

Eventhough it was horrible, I managed to finish my rice.

I'm really fustrated at how some Malays do their food business, especially those serving malay dishes.

Sometimes,they think they know how to cook laksa johor but they used ikan kembong when ikan parang supposed to be used. Masak merah cooked simply with tomato sauce mixed with chili sause. and sometimes, sweet & sour tasted the same as masak merah ! padprik & kicap also tasted the same. Prolly padprik has more chillies as compared to normal kicap. And as mentioned as the above..

They cheat in doing business and their price is unreasonable with the horrible food they served..


Eventhough I complained endlessly, I Alhamdulillah after meal, thanking Allah for blessing me with food. & I prayed, hopefully other days would not be as unlucky as today. And hopefully other Malays who served malay food , would do it sincerely and prepare the food well.

Singapore ooo la la !~

I'll be leaving to Singapore for the weekend with family. Papa, Eryanie, Ellyssa & I till Sunday. And guess what !?? Ejul & whole family will be going there too ! on the same day !!! yaaayy ! what a coincidence ! but they are going back on Saturday, I think.

Seriously, we did not make any plans together ! but oh well, why not have a lil plans laid , since his and my family will be there aight? *cough* plans with the kids larr :P

We're going to spend Christmas there. Not that we celebrate, but we loved & enjoyed the environment in Singapore ! with lights and PEOPLE !! HAHA! and most importantly is their sale sale sale,, everywhere !! woot woot !!

But it won't be the same without Mama, Ewanina & Ekhwan who are 10552 km away ! :( AND I guess , they are having fun with snows and sales too ! heheeh!!

Hitting the road in half an hour baby !!! HAVE A GREAT HOLIDAY to all !!! ;))
If any of you are in Singapore, and somehow saw a cute small lady pushing a stroller and recognized that lady as EZYANA , SMILE AND SCREAM HYESS ok??? ;))

BABAI MALAYSIA ! see u next four days :P

It made my day

Random someone made my day today at the accident & emergency department.

I don't usually put up make-ups except when I'm attending special occasions/events, or going out for dinners, and to the shopping malls. Powder, eyeliner and lipgloss would just do it for malls.

I am posted in A&E dept for the next 3weeks and today is my 3rd day. I realized this really pretty chinese girl , a houseman, who wears make-up everyday. It is not just another basic ones.

Foundation, blusher, eyeshadow, eyeliner, mascara, lipstick.. everything complete ! and she looks pretty & awesomely presentable. I admired the way she brings herself. OMG, i'm a girl and she captured my eye. I wonder how many other men out there would be mesmerized looking at her :) I'm not exaggerating, but she's pretty. And the beauty stands out more with her talent on applying make-ups.

Some doctors looked terrible especially the morning after their exhausting night duty. People who have a quick glance might questioned if he/she showered before the morning rounds. And some really couldn't care much on how they appear.

Oh well, as long as you look clean & healthy & neat is OOOKAAAYYY for a doctor.

The fact that she has time to put up make up beautifully and neatly, draws my admiration. Not many people can do that. I? of course not ! I usually wake up 20minutes before sessions starts !

10 minutes in the shower, 5 minutes to dress up and 5 minutes to ride to the hospital. I treasure my sleep so much I don't care if I don't look beautiful. as long as i'm clean & neat.

AND, what made my day today was. This chinese houseman, who is pretty, approached me today.

DR: girl ! girl !
ME : oh,... yes?
DR: are you chinese?
ME : i'm not.
DR: what's your name?
ME: Ezyana
DR: ooo.. pretty la you ! (with a smile)
ME: oooo.. (smiles back) thanks.

and went away, blushing. LOL !

gulp ! a pretty houseman tells me that i'm pretty ! and i'm not even wearing any make-up. I felt WOWWWWWWWWW ! :D:D:D
for what matters, it really made my day !!THANKYOUUUUUUUUUUUUU !

I wished I could tell her that she looks even prettier ! maybe I was too shocked. or maybe because I felt too junior around the doctors hence brings down my confidence to say wtvr I want to say. OR I DON't know! damn! oh well, just hope that the doctor would read this post one day :P WHAHAHAAHAH ! thanks for making my day ! ;)

.... is my alarm clock

Traditionally, before a girl marry her man, she would be encouraged to recite whole book of Al-Quran. After completing that, there will be a ceremony called Khatam Al-Quran few days before the solemnization ceremony.

Actually, unquote that..

All Muslims are encouraged to recite whole book before they end their life. Other religions might questioned - aren't you supposed to recite them daily ? --> Of course some would do during their free time but not the whole book at one go. And some prefer to recite only certain Surah ( Story ) regularly.

And Al-Quran has its own beauty and story where full concentration is needed to recite them. Al-Quran has 30 chapters (juzuk). One chapter consists of 20pages. To complete reciting one chapter might take approximately 1 hour half or 2hours.

So, since wedding is in 7 months ++ time, I had started reciting Al-Quran from the first chapter, in hope to Qatam for the 2nd time before the wedding day. I started it since fasting month in August this year. And since I am home only on weekends, my progress is a little slow mo. ! I prefer morning sessions because I want to go out freely in the afternoon.

FYI, I am very well known of my super "uncool" sleeping habit ! I SLEEP SOUNDLY , even an earthquake won't shake me up !

so.. here's what happened recently..

Usually when my mom is home, she would be my morning alarm clock. A very LOUD one. heeh !

However , she had gone to UK last week. Hence last weekend, she was not around to wake me up.
My mom, very genious she is, who knows her daughter very very very well, gave an advice to ustazah, to give me a wake up call before pushing off from her house.. haahah!

and the funny thing was, after waking me up on one of the days , she did not hung up after. and OBVIOUSLY, I could actually hear her from my end. She was telling her husband something like this..

" budak ni kena telepon. kalau tak dia tak bangun "

OMG !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

but for all that matters, Thank You ustazah for the wake up calls and teaching. heheehe ;))

no can do

One of the not-cool-stuff you've got to deal with once you are planning to get married is...

TO CUT DOWN SHOPPING and only shop for the important stuffs...
ONLY !!!! sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..

I loved shopping ! Who doesn't? Boys and girls , are equal. Maybe differ in terms of the things they purchased.

I go to malls almost everyweekend , because that is the only place where I can find leisure outside home. It is nice to go to malls. Air-conditioned, clean, easy to find food and I get to see pretty stuffs while walking. Able to buy what I liked tooo !!!..

My boyfriend..oops, FIANCE always had to remind me to save save save and not to shop shop shop. I listened to him. I really do. but, the problem is.. He and I are no different! We binged shopping ! Once the mood is there, we shop for whatever we like without inhibition.

OK let's return to the main topic. I am truly blessed to have parents who would support me, but I need to save too !
I hope with a little savings, there are small little things where I can contribute. The gifts for the groom, or the makeup artist or photographer or the spas & facials ! Hence, i've got to save ! :-s

It is difficult.

And since my sister AKA my shopping-mate is back for 3months, is not of any help either !

Worst more, I tried to resist shopping malls for shopping purposes BUT I just did online shopping 2 days ago.......

a but in a perfect picture.

Our brain stops developing when we reached 25 for the ladies and 27 for the gentlemen. Develop in the sense to become more mature in decision making. That is why, at the early 20's, we might have numerous doubts in life. Ambivalence they called it.

YES..
Maybe No..
YES YES CONFIRMED.
erm, i was wrong. Maybe NO.
aaaahhh, just go for it. YES it is.

THAT's the example for ambivalence.

Unfortunately, we need to make a huge decision at that stage when we are not mature enough.

Choosing a career & deciding which occupation to pursue in, which boy/girl shall one choose to be their life partner.

Don't worry, I'm not bragging about the choice I've made. To get married at the age of 24 years old. Nothing to brag of, because choice made was pretty affirmative =p

It is HUGE that most of us had to choose their career at the age of 18. Pretty ridiculous too! Mind boggling and torturing.

And that is where parents play their role. Choosing what they think is best for their kids, future & family.

I’ve got nothing much to complain. But because I was having pretty tough adolescent-hood throughout my university life, I deserve to grumble.


Not to say that I was not blessed enough. Truly, I am! However perfect a picture is, there is always a BUT in it.

Some of us are lucky enough to like what they chose. Few were unlucky that they thought they like and found out that they didn’t like what they chose and have a passion for something else. Some felt as if been forced to do things that they have no passion into, and yet have no other choice. A number of them are passionate, but have difficulties to make it through.


As for me, I am passionate to take medicine & Alhamdulillah, I can cope with them. I love medicine so much I would not mind staying in the hospital all day. I like medicine since I was a kid. Even though my parents encouraged me and was a little pushy during the applications, I still can’t deny it that I could not picture myself other than being a doctor.

The big BUT in this picture is that, I’m not happy. I’m happy when I’m in the hospital, learning new stuff, seeing cool signs and symptoms. But I’m not happy at the environment I’m in. God, how I wished my crazy best friends would have taken the same course as I did. I wished for that almost every day.


It is insane really, to complain. Not like I don’t have friends in Melaka. I have. Many!

Some are pretty cool and most of them are nice. But, it is just not the same.

Then, I felt much motivated. I see them study, I get motivated. They see me study, they get motivated. We would race till who would last longer through the night. And we would envy those with big eye-bags, because we know she studied too hard that she did not sleep.

In the university, for the past 4years ++, I’ve been alone almost all the time. But I loved being alone. Everybody has their things to do, errands to run and schedule to obey. I would hate it if someone were to disturb me. Hence, alone is good for me.

All of us have one goal, to pass MBBS. I like it when we had extra classes and group studies. But when we don’t, I don’t benefit much. I’m such a mess when I’m alone. Thank God I have pretty good hippocampus.

That is why I always asked if my friends would want to study together. BUT THEY ALWAYS PREFER TO BE IN THEIR ROOM! honestly, it is nice to be in the room ! I loved being in my room ! so comfy.

And then, I would forced my best friends to accompany me online. One in Japan, another in Damansara, and the other in Klang. Forced them to force me study. Make them stay awake until I finished studying! pfft. pathetic !

Also, I get motivated when I see my uncle does his work in his clinics, or when I’m with my cousins talking about medicine. But, I’m lacking these motivations.

So, how do we solve this? A person who is extremely passionate, but lack of motivation.

mix.fm

Nuffnang has put up a new advertisement on mix.fm whereby when you click this, you can drop some suggestions to help them improve their services in terms of songs & games & activities.


I feel FLY & HITZ are too overated. They play similar songs again and again. And wouldn't you agree if I say, they play club musics almost all the time ? it's like being in a club/bar when you're actually in the car. No wonder some kids go road-rage , head banging and jumps up and down in the car. Blame the musics played on air, I guess :P


Oh well, Hits & Fly has their ups already. Let us give Mix.fm a new leaf to turn to. Help them improve. Participate and who knows you might be the lucky few to get iPhone4 ! XD

100 plus and lamb is not a good combo

Do not eat black pepper burger with milo drink. I tried it once and it is just like eating purgatives.

Do not eat lamb with 100plus or any gassy drink for that matter. Your stomach feels like its gonna burst any time and your head spins so hard, you can hardly walk in a straight line. :P

I might exaggerate a lil' , but I extremely hate this feeling ! I ate them at 12noon and still feels discomfort up to midnight on the same day !

all about e-day baju (pt 3 : final)

Lesson that I've learnt is to not do tailoring LAST-MINUTE !!!!

I mentioned earlier that I bought my material in late September. My mom & I planned to send it to the tailor early October but our tailor was pretty laid-back. Everytime we informed her that we wanted to send those materials, "Got time. Send it one month before", she said.

A month prior to engagement, My mom instruct me to go to the tailor and get my measurements. We couldn't go together as she was tight up with some events & activities , and I won't be in KL on weekdays. Hence the lone-ranger to the tailor.

I went to see aunty Tailor, and she took my measurements. I told her the design my mom & I had decided with.

2 days later, when I was in Melaka, my mom brought the materials and went to meet Aunty Tailor. My mom described the design in detail and wanted a black lace. Aunty Tailor disagree with the black lace and recommended a similar color to the baju for the lace. ( pheewww,, THANK YOU AUNTY TAILOR !! =D)
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Unfortunately, the lace had gold thread embedded in it. My mom thought Aunty tailor could remove them manually. BUT, she didn't want to do the work.

Hence, my mom , Ewanina, bibik & I removed the threads till it's clean.

Returned to Aunty tailor's place. Lace is SET !

2weeks before my engagement, I went for fitting (Before she place the beads).

BUT.... another problem appeared.

We went to buy the materials , remember? but we totally forgotten about the lining for the arms. We bought lining for the body but not the arms ! yikes~


My mom rushed to get the lining for the arms.
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ANOTHER PROBLEM APPEARED A WEEK BEFORE ENGAGEMENT :-ss gulppppppppppppppppppppppp..
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mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm...



TAILOR FORGOTTEN THE EXACT COLORS OF THE PENDANT !!!! so she doesn't know which beads to choose .. OH-EMM-GEE..
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My mom brought the pendant to the tailor's place. Chose the colored beads together with Aunty Tailor.
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And started the beads work a week prior to engagement.



A WEEK OK???? How was I not 'cacing kepanasan' in MELAKA? mygoodness..
Girls, please. Note my word. NO LASTMINUTE BAJU !

We trusted her work. Hence, I tried my best to calm myself at 144 km away from home.

Alhamdulillah, she did not fail us.

tadaaaaaa..



I collected my Baju a day before my engagement day.

-end of Baju story-
and now, do you agree when I say, this baju holds a lot of story in it ? =)


p.s. : I missed this drama already ! AND is indeed anxious for the upcoming preps.

all about e-day baju (pt 2)

We have this nice multiple colour precious stones pendant. And the biggest stone is yellow in color. (forgotten the name of the stone) . My mom was curious and worried a lil whether the pendant would match my baju. And I confidently said - "Don't worry ma, it will be nice ! and it will match purrfectly"

(pssssttt, sincerely.. I wasn't that confident but my 'instinct' said NICE =D)

Since the pendant had so many colors, my mom gave the idea to put a lot of colored beads on the baju. And, apart from the colored beads, she planned for the lace to be BLACK. because black stands out when combined to coral pink.. *hmmmmmmmmmmppphhhhhhhhh* I trusted my mom with the design but black lace is 50-50 for me.

My mom gave me a verbal picture how the baju will look like. I tried to picture it and had the effort to sketch them too. My mom described only one picture, but I took an effort to alter it and tried to have my own design. But more or less still similar to my mom's design. HEHE ! I'll improve on designing, don't you worry :P I even sketched them during CLASS !!!..

One day,I sketched it to my mom.

"Like this ma?"

My mom looked at my drawing , unsatisfied with my sketch. errr, excuse me madam,your daughter is not a designer ogayh.. :P

She said , "yep, something like dat".

Then she sketched another baju and asked "how about this?" .. "neehhhhhhh, I prefer your 1st idea." (the one I sketched)

It is difficult to actually make an engagement baju. You wouldn't want to be to grand but you want it to be nice. Baju that is not like a wedding baju, but still make people go "WOW" when they see it.

The next part would be messy ! See you soon ;)

all about e-day baju (pt 1)

arghh..! I'm done with psychiatry posting. Hopefully, done for good ;) And.. end posting exam went well too, Alhamdulillah.

I got engaged on 20th November as mentioned in previous post. I was super duper tempted to complain and nag and bug in the blog about the preps , but I've got to be patient. Cause a single leak is no fun ! XD hehe!

This is...



yes.. my Engagement baju. well, partly..

Here's the full version..


close up..

and.. I don't think you get to see them clearly in those pictures. Still waiting for more pixies from mr.photog. Will update you with better photos soon.

That baju holds a lot of story. ABSOLUTELY SERIOUSLY A LOT.

I told my mom that I wanted a simple baju (SIMPLE?) .. but yehhhh, simple in the sense that I could wear it for other occasions in future e.g. weddings and events etc. A nice baju for my engagement and be able to wear it in future. Hence , the kurung-look-alike baju =p

What do you think of the color? NICE is it not?

*clears throat* eheeeemmmmmm


I chose the color ! thank you for complimenting ! So sweet of all of youuuu ! ;)

It's a coral pink color, in case any of you wonder.

I really really fell in love with this color long time. I told the wedding planner that I love this color and would want to use it for wedding. (ps: we pick wedding color 1st , to save the best color for the last. )

But according to her, coral pink is a difficult color. Difficult to attain. Thus, she adviced me to go coral for engagement since the props won't be much for engagement. Hence, I agreed. My mom agreed. And at current, I'm scratching head for the wedding color :P

fyi, I chose C06, but slightly darker tone. Coral has few tones and most of them looked orangy. But I specifically asked for a coral pink.

When you see that color, you may wonder whether is it pink, or is it orange? it's really nice to have that combo!YUMMEH ! ..




We hunt for the color, after risik (risik: was on the 8th of August) & after done discussing with our wed-planner. ( i called her wedding planner, coz engagement planner sounded not so nice don't u think?)

We went to one shop. my mom would pick a material and asked " is this the color " ?
"No, ma.. that's orange.."

" is it this color ? " ... " No, ma.. that's pink . "

I repeatedly show her the color on the internet. Bought a color printer just to print THAT color. And still, the same questions would be repeated when we entered subsequent shops.

We went to Singapore , on the 3rd day of Raya. My mom gave one brilliant-interesting idea to pick a ribbon with the color that I wanted !
We went to hunt for the ribbon. Found it.. Cut it .. Cut it half ; one for me, one for my mom.

phewww.. her brilliant idea relieved us from the misery.. Since then, the " is this the color " question did not arise as frequent as previous.

Ok, the frustrating part was, almost all shops in KL don't have that color. The color that I wanted.

Euromoda? Jakel? Nuh-uh.. ZILCH ! there was but it was satin. I wanted chiffon.

Late September, my mom and I went to Jakarta to browse around. I prayed, alot. I prayed for our journey would be eased by Him. and Alhamdulillah, it did.

I've found the exact color, exact material (better actually) with a very reasonable price in JAKARTA ! all the way from Jakarta DUDE my material. HELO-HELO, it's ALHAMDULILLAH ok? I alhamdulillah all the way when I found what I wanted. I was extremely happy. And I got one for Ijul too, but different material. Hence his color differs by few tones.

And , eventho I got the color that I wanted, the lining played tricks here. If I pick the same color of my choice for the lining, it wouldn't be coral pink. It would be more on the orangy tone. And the color that I wanted, would not striked-out. Hence, I picked pink for the lining. Mind u, it's not the striking pink. Slightly darker tone of pink, almost similar to rose-pink.
( pink is so awesome they've got bountiful tones !! )

This picture is the closest view to the color of the baju that I have at the moment.
Story about the Baju has not end yet. Will be continued..... =)

i'm engaged !!

Alhamdulillah I'm engaged to mr.Ijul on the 20th November 2010 at my parent's place in Subang Jaya ! Alhamdulillah the event went well & smooth. And the preparation prior, were like a wheel. One day my mom & I were best friends. The day after we were in mute-mode. hehe ! (because I communicated with my mom most XD) and same goes to the people around us. Mixed of both bitter and sweet in preparing for the engagement. But the outcome was way beyond my expectations.

I can't thanked Allah the most for blessing me with great parents who has made every girl's dream of having a great engagement day true. And great siblings, great family, aunties, uncles, cousins, nieces, nephews , grandma, grandaunties and granduncles, and friends who had supported me, helped me, wished me , prayed for us and celebrated with us.

I wished I could write more. Unfortunately , I have to be patient and continue later. I've got end posting exams tomorrow and the day after. So many things to share !! Be patient with me, alright?? =)

p.s.: we had a cake cutting for my dad since his birthday is of the 25th on November ! =)

Look forward for my next writings ! pai pai XD

ellyssa

She is one unique sister. Let me tell u little something about her.



* She hates it if she is the center of attention e.g blow a cake for birthdays or taking pictures when there are so many people looking at her. And also when people were to compliment her. SHE HATES IT.

* She hates camera. So if u see her smiling in photo, that is definitely a special photo. because, SHE HATES CAMERA !!!!

* She loves icecream.. But she likes it MELT. If it is frozen, she would wait till it melts.

* She is one hell of a great RECORDER. if she wants something, she would repeat repeat repeat repeat repeat repeat ,regardless of your response.. UNTIL SHE GETS IT !!!!!


this was taken in pavilion, after she continuously bragged for this "fairy" outfit. After my Aunty has bought for her, she insisted to wear it there and then.pfft! Can u please imagine the embarrassment I've gotta deal with at that time??



* She loves to drink milk. She drinks milk ALL THE TIME. "NAK SUSU NAK SUSU NAK SUSU" she would say. There was once, she ate the powder milk from the milk tin when my mom ignored her sfter she asked for milk.. Omg , cheeky lil girl she is !!


have i told u that she is good with computers as well?she is ! infact, she is BETTER than our daddy.



* She loves noodles.. and anything that looks like a noodle. taugeh is a noodle to her.

* She loves chicken .. even if it is spicy.

* We all thought she would cry infront of a crowd since she hates it when people were to stare at her. But the other day during school concert, she puts up a very blunt face and she did her routine well.. she did not cry, AT ALL ! i'm so proud of her.

* She loves anything to do with princesses. Princess' shows, princess' outfits , princess everything. You call her princess, and she will SMILE endlessly ! hehe

* Lastly, she had lost few hairs due to her habit of tangling them in her fingers. and she does that often when she is about to go to sleep. If u see her doing that, means she is sleepy Heheeh ! she gets that from ME XD twirling the hair in the fingers.


muaaahhhhhxxx! can't wait to kiss u when I get back..

hysteria

Today, a task was given to me which was to perform an act of "hysteria" for afternoon tutorial class. Topics given were very interesting. All related to culture-bound psychiatric problems e.g. Latah, Amok, Trance, Hysteria and Koro.

I am very much familiar with hysteria as it is very common in boarding school and camps. Hence, they asked me to demonstrate..pfffftt.. !

First of, let me start with hysteria as general. We all , or at least most of us believe that hysteria is due to an external spirit which enters one's body and causes that person to act violently, aggressively & out of control.

But actually, hysteria is not due to outer spirits. It is purely psychological. It is due to over-stressed and uncontrolled emotions which lead oneself to exert in such violent manner. That is why, it is very common in boarding school, among factory workers and at camp sites.

I remembered one of my friend told me when a hysteria was going on, that I should not go near if I'm not strong. "Because the spirit is able to jump from one person to another person especially into the weaker ones."

After learning psychiatry, and put a little logic of what my friend was once told me, it is not due to spirit jumping around. Simply because, if you're not strong, you may exert the same way as your friend did. You and the "hysteria" person is staying at the same place with same people doing the same daily activity , hence the stress factors might be the same.

I really feel hysteria is a way of getting the attention of others. No offence

And how they handled it , usually by reciting religious words from the Book they practiced , hoping to cure that person and make the spirit goes away. Psychiatric speaking, there is no spirit in hysteria. And this method of treatment is a way to actually calm that person.

Another way to treat is to remove the hysteric person from the group, to avoid mass hysteria.

If you have seen one, you might realized that it always occur prior to major examinations. And, don't get hysteria wrong from 'rasuk' . It is different. I think.


I acted well and definitely was proud of myself. I was worried if I might make a fool out of myself, but I did not. I tried my best to remember what I saw in 5 to 10years back, and get the "stress" aura.

I was definitely worried if I might scare them off. Hence, gave them warning before-hand- "this is going to be violent, and loud. Please be prepared" ..

Some of them start covering their ears, scared I might blow their ear drums. Some start laughing. and some just waiting...

I tried to concentrate. "I really need to do this well. If not, they wouldn't feel how i felt when i saw hysteria" ..

When I start acting, all kept quite. One of them laughed , I don't know why this friend of mine exert quite inappropriate affect. So, I scare him with a stare and asked him a question in a different, angry voice. " APA KAU BUAT KAT SINI !!! " He got scared ! hehe..

mission accomplished !
My friend took video of me, but somehow the video went missing after I acted.......................................................

damon is my vampire boyfriend

I'm a fan of series,, particularly English series. Currently, I'm following:-

*One Tree Hill
*Grey's Anatomy
*Private Practice
*Vampire Diaries
*How I Met Your Mother
*America's Next Top Model

And I will make sure I'm up-to-date for each current/latest episodes ..

Vampire diaries is simply the best among all series. One reason for sure is because of Damon Salvatore. OMG OMG ! I sounded so kid-ish to write about someone in a movie whom I admire, would die for and dream of !
BUT DAMON IS MAKING ME CAN'T-WAIT-FOR-THE -NEXT-EPISODE !!!!

goshhhhhhh..

Ok, so initially, before vampire diaries existed, there were few vampires series. One of the hot ones in the past was Buffy, the vampire slayer. I, however did not follow Buffy. One of the reason would be, boarding school = no access to tv and its all about study-study-study endlessly.

And then comes Twilight. So, Edward Cullen was supposed to be the hottie, right? But twilight turned me down after the subsequent second and third part of the movie.

I was introduced to vampire diaries by my sister, Eryanie. (i think) ..
When I watched VD, it interest me in totally different angle. One thing for sure, VD can't be compared to Twilight. After watching VD, twilight is just a movie that could be laughed at. SERIOUS ! NO QUALITY AT ALL. TOO fictional. Illogical vampire love stories. Not interesting. It fits me.

Damon Salvatore has the most interesting character in VD. Initially, I was more for the brother. But later, Stefan Salvatore irks me.

I watch too much series till i feel like I'm in it. I wish Damon is just next door. gggggggggggggggggggggg..

girls, meet my vampire boyfriend- Mr.Damon Salvatore *grinsssss* !


drooooooooolllllllzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz...
I don't mind if you have the same feelings for Damon, just don't spoil my fantasy OK?

( my mom may say - "apa nak jadi dengan anak aku" after reading this post ) hehehe..


Can't wait for the next episode !!!!

come home quick mama !

I find it amusing to see my dad, when his spouse is not around...

My mom went overseas with her friends for 3days 2nights and he already looked lost.

On the 1st night when my mom was not around...

* Ezyana, let's go for a&w.
* I'm lazy pa. Let's stay home.
* ALAAAAA, boring la u ni...



While I was eating dinner..
*I'm going out
*Where are u going?
*to Kelana Jaya. I want to drive around kelana jaya
*huhhh??? drive ? only driving around??
* yaaaa, BORING !!!!!!!! i wanna go out !
* ok pa, love u.

And he actually went to WQ park to help my uncle for his opening ceremony which is held the next day.
Phew, I'm a lil relieved. At least he has something to do than wandering around with the car.


and when he reached home..
* I want to sleep outside infront of the TV. Can u prepare the mattress for me.
* ok...

psssttt, actually.. he is scared to sleep alone in his room.. HEHE ! it's a secret. Let it stay between you & me. PROMISE?

And he slept alone outside. Ellyssa & I slept in my room , and Ewanina was with her friends in the other room.. tsktsktsk..
The next morning he went out to get us breakfast.

On the 2nd night, I gave the idea to eat dinner at Empire, Subang Jaya.


OK-OK, it wasn't entirely my idea.Twas my boyfriend's suggestion. He said, "kesiyan your dad, go ajak him dinner? " .. And mind you, This boyfriend INSISTED ok? insisted. not only giving idea, but forced me to make sure my dad goes out for dinner.. -____- .. how lovely he is, my bf , isn't he?

So we went out for dinner. He didn't complain that bored this time. But he still sleeps outside on the 2nd night. hehe!



Ma, he misses u.. ! glad u're coming back tomorrow.. =) Love you both !

mittelschmerz

Ladies, have you ever experienced pain over the lower abdomen, near the inguinal region? The pain is dull-aching (senak) in nature, and you have difficulties to walk with a straight posture thus you prefer walking while bending your body forward a little. It is very similar to appendicitis ( inflammation of the appendix )

I've encountered that frequently. They say, it is because of frequent handling with heavy objects which causes the female organ to descend ("they" means the elderly). I accepted their views and thoughts since I wasn't that knowledgeable then. The elderly sayings make logic sense anyway. But, I've encountered it too frequently and it did not correlates with carrying heavy objects either. hmpphhh..

My question was answered when I'm in clinical years in medical school. This pain is actually called "Mittelschmerz". It is a mid cyclical pain which corresponds to ovulation. For people with regular cycle of 28 days, they will get the pain at day 14th.

Unfortunately, my cycles are not regular. Sometimes 30 days, sometimes 34. But the cool part is, our menstrual period is divided into two phases. Phase before ovulation i.e. follicular phase and the second phase is after ovulation i.e. secretory phase. The second phase is constant 14days but the follicular phase is irregular.

So, when I get the pain, I will calculate and after 14days, I'll get my menses =)

And the pain alternate sides. One month it'll occur on the left and the next month on the right and so forth.

I'm not sure what is the cause of this pain. and why only some would experienced this pain when they ovulate, and some don't.


Ovulation : a mature ovarian follicle ruptures and discharges an ovum (also known as an oocyte, female gamete, or casually, an egg) ; wikipedia.org

jakun nyeeeeee..

I'm at home currently, and the internet at home is super-fast ! super-awesome UNIFI , we had subscribed to.

What I did for the last few hours was updating my blog, search for cool widgets and insert them into my blog. cool stuff I tell u. I didn't know by typing into Google for "chatbox for bloggers" will get numerous results and answers. I'm a lil noob, mind you ! I seldom use google to search for all of these ..

I thought, Blogger should provide us with these cool widgets.

So, there's a chat box or shout box I've added here, in my blog. In case you are bored, want to communicate with me or other readers, have suggestions or comments regarding previous post & etc etc, feel free to shout it there =) it's easy. No signing up needed.. ! Cool-stuff !

20 years , maybe..

Diamonds are girl's best friend. Jeweleries are girl's second best friend. But both fall under similar group - girl's accessories. They add the beauty in us, don't they?

However, they are girl's best friend when the girls can afford to have it, to own it. Window shopping and trying it on, forming a picture behind our head when we wear it, dreaming of owning these diamonds are one dreadful feeling!! Or be a little nice by saying, "you'll be my bestfriend in 20 years time, ok?"

My mom & I went to one of the jeweleries store last weekend to browse around for herself and also for myself. I usually go to these stores when my mom is around to bring me. Honestly speaking, I don't have the guts to look around and ask if I can try it on knowing that my pocket is near empty. Unless if it is the normal , affordable stores e.g. diva's, monet, madam butterfly, weekend market @ curve & etc.

And so when I browsed around , tried on a few. My heart skipped many many beats when I looked at the price. All the nice ones are all above 10K. Even some reached 100K. Oh my..

And just guess what did i do at that moment ?

Really I'm not that embarrassed to tell .. We all have a story to share , don't we?

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It is not that funny trust me.

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A little childish , probably.

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I don't know. You tell me after I tell you. OK?

SO..

I took my phone out, pretending as if I was using the phone to sms.. (can guess what i did already?)

YES ! hahaa! I clicked on the calculator, calculate my salary next year, minus all future expenses, divided by 12 to see how many years more do I have to wait. People who invented hand-phones are very smart to have added calculator in it. I do this, ALL THE TIME.

SICK ! HATE ! eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee i hate going out with my mom , dreaming of getting these expensive things that I know, I've gotta wait. PATIENCE KILLS ! shut-up positive motivating optimist ! I'm all pessimist now.. =(

That's all i've gotta share. For now, real diamonds are not my bestfriend. I'll make them my bestfriend when I can own a Ferrari.

Hospital is hazardous...

Working in a hospital, exposed us to all kinds of danger. I personally never have thought of that. Until I've reached final year, when my working life is just right at the corner......

We, the innocent, young ones in the past, when been asked why did we choose of becoming a doctor. And majority of us answered - to save people & to help people.

And when reality really hit us, we would have doubts many many many many times. No doubt of that one.

Let's just stick to the word "hazardous"

Hospital harbors bacteria which are very resistance to antibiotic treatments. Resistance would mean, these bacterias are very strong that normal antibiotic would not work. Of course when we are all fit and strong, we would not get the infection easily , or we would manifest in a milder way. But when we transmit to a weaker person, the person might manifest severely.

In easy words -- the strong bacteria infects the strong u -- > u'll get a flu..

You transmit the flu to a weaker person ---> person gets pneumonia.

I've experienced a bad cough, it took 3weeks to recover. I got the cough from pediatric ward when the ward was swamped with pneumonia kids. My phlegm was all green and yucky and i coughed terribly. I go home every weekend and somehow, I think i transmitted it to my mom.

She was caught with severe cough for 3MONTHS ! She took multiple antibiotics but it did not recover as fast. Sorry mama =(

secondly.. Why hazardous? We take blood and insert lines everyday. We are predispose to needle-prick injury and hence, at risk of HIV or hepatitis B or C infection if we accidentally poke ourselves after drawing blood from infected patients. The risk of getting these infections are small ~1% . But 1 is still a number.

Trust me, injury happens. It is not as easy as u think it is.

Thirdly.. hazardous because we are exposed to TB patients especially in the medical wards. Some would say, if your body is strong, you won't get TB. but how strong are u ? even a normal person with sound immunity system gets the infection. We would wear mask, but it is really difficult to explain. When they come to us, they complained of cough. The doctor will talk for 1hour maybe, to get the history right before diagnosing? and only then you realized its a TB. OH-NO. dingdong !

Xrays are used not only in Xrays room. But sometimes in the wards for patient who are bed-ridden. And in Operating Theater especially during orthopedic surgery. Exposure to Xrays is hazardous OK?

The last , final thing i could think of is medicolegal issues. It is HAZARDOUS, no kidding. Medicolegal and ethical issues are just mind torment. I would not explain much because there are too many things that fall under this category.

Patient go wrong, the family bombard you with many many questions --> not satisfied--> court of law..

Or, doctor managed wrongly -->court of law.

Or, patient wanted to kill himself - can't take the suffering of the disease, asked help from doctor --> doctor in dilemma

( purpose is to help, so is killing a patient to reduce the suffering is helpful? ) dilemma sux !

Or, patient got raped, asked for an abortion where medicolegally, we are prohibited to do so. Dilarang sama sekali !(again, wanted to help but can't) Unless,if to be pregnant is dangerous to the mother.

Study medicine is massive. Work is massive too! I would not say doctor has the worst , terrible most and toughest job ever. But, it would be nice to have people around that understand us. And it is not just doctors that are exposed to these hazards. But also the nurses and medical attendants too !

definitely original !

Thailand, Indonesia and China are famous for their cheap goods and imitation products. The nearest here would be Petaling street !

I think i've been here once ! items were not that cheap, okayh !

Plenty of imitation products and some are really good as they look, feel, and smell exactly the same to the original ones.

You name it ! Branded handbags ie LV,Dior,Hermes,Chanel, Burberry, Fendi, Feragamo .. Everything ! Not only handbags & purse, but there are sunglasses, watches, handphones, laptop, jeweleries, perfumes and even beauty products ! ! These black market rised enormously, and I think they make money more than the original dealers ! !

I would be telling a lie if I were to say I'm totally against it ! Who doesn't buy immitation products? Even charles & keith imitates branded shoes ! Bummer!

However similar they may look alike, the originals still win ! Those who are used to originals may easily spot the flaws in an imitated bag used in shopping malls, by the road sides, at the office or at any special occasion.

And trust me, original last !

"Last" means, you will appreciate originals ! Because you will invest large sum of money to buy this branded item. And their quality cannot be compared to the imitated items.

When you buy the "copied" item, you will use it once or probably more than once but definitely won't last up to a year.

The feeling of wearing or owning an original, branded, expensive items are different! They make us feel special, confident, vibrant and smart!

To all the girls who would die for an expensive , branded handbags & boys who drool over expensive watches, and end up with a big sigh after looking at the $$price$$ stated, and have the thought of going to the black market because they are wayyyyyy cheaper, DON'T !

PLEASE !!!! Be patient. Save your money in a bank or in a safe. When you have that amount of money, GRAB IT FAST ! and don't waste any minute out of it ! The feeling is $$$priceless$$$ ! and trust me, you will feel proud of yourself ! =)

cheers~

long distance relationship

.... are difficult for most of us. For ALL of us, I shall say. Even to someone who were not in a long distance, got distant from their partner for 2 days or so.

They would missed the other-half dreadfully. Can't sleep. Can't eat. Everything seem improper.

The BIG issues or problems for long distance relationship are

1. TRUST ISSUES

2. unable to be independent without the other-half

3. to maintain the romance when being miles apart.

Let us begin with the first one. TRUST.

It is a simple word with a deep meaning. All about love is trust. To trust someone and to earn the trust at the same time. Trust is not easy but is never impossible. To trust someone, you need to be someone that could be trusted first. If you can't , then why are we talking about trust in the first place ?

You have to be honest & sincere to the relationship you are willing to commit. It would be nice to tell the other-half your where-abouts , what you're doing or are you planning to do, with whom you're going out with and etc. It may sound silly , as if you were controlled by a control-freak but it really helps. Being far is difficult, why making it worst?

Slowly the trust would build-up , the other-half would not worry much of being apart from you. Trust issue would not be a big hassle if both partners are sincere & open to each other. Another important rule is, do NOT do the things you hate behind your partner. You wouldn't want to mess with karma would u..

second issue - Unable to be independent without the other half.

Especially when they were used to having the other-half around them, and got distant unexpectedly. It is difficult to adjust when you used to do everything together.

Go to class together. Go lunch & /or dinner together. Study together. Shop together. Do chores together. Meet friends together. e-v-e-r-y-t-h-i-n-g is t-o-g-e-t-h-e-r. Like soulmates. Also, being near would enable them to talk to the phone for hours without worrying of the bills much.

And when they suddenly go miles apart, they would feel lost, teared apart & the colorful world turned black. All soppy, overemotional, hopeless & depressed.

Be independent is another difficult advice to convey. It is subjective and it is all in the mind. If you want to be independent, you will be independent ! Just decide to be independent, and your body will react to it. It takes time to adjust, but it is possible to achieve.

Who say it is impossible to be together when both are at distant? You could shop online together, study infront of the webcam together and talk via skype or any messengers. If you loved someone dearly, you will try to stop complaining, and try your best to adapt to it.

Lastly, to mantain the romance when being miles apart. You have to be creative with this one. Whether is it a guy or a girl. Some ideas I could think of would be :-

• Giving gifts via post. Nowadays, they have all kind of websites that deliver gifts and cards. Payments could be done by credit/cash card. It is very easy. Giving gifts to your loved ones are possible even being miles away.
• Seek favor from your mother, sister, brother or friend to get you something and deliver to your other-half if you are lazy to enter the website.
• Post a card to the house on special occasion
• Send an e-card everytime u miss him/her.
• Send a postcard if you went travelling and share the details of the place you have visited.
• Log-in to Google World or something, I forgot. And travel the world together. It is really cool I've done this with my girlfriends, 3 of us. one in japan, one in india and the other in malaysia. We visited our friend in japan via Google. but we got lost in India..Pfft..
• Shop online together. Ask the other half for opinion before getting the stuff you are planning to get.
• Plan a surprise party for boyfriend with his friends or your friends without him knowing. And ask them to switch on the webcamera so that you could join the celebration from distant. This allows you to celebrate together. You had planned for the celebration and "joined" in too ! Your partner would be touched with this one , I'm sure ! (and viceversa)
• Making international calls are expensive. But do have a one-minute conversation. A brief, short and sweet one.
• Make a surprise arrival back to hometown =) erm, this can be exciting and dangerous too. hehe..

I can't think of more. what do you think of LDR ? and it would be great if you could share any ideas you have in mind !

quick updates

Dear readers,

Thank you so much for supporting me by reading my blog posts. To those who followed me, I'm so sorry for not being able to put up a post daily. I've been tied up with my day to day life and the upcoming special events preparation. I thanked my mother especially and my father much for helping me most when I'm away in Melaka. And also Ewanina (my sister) & Aunty Lily for helping my mom out. Please ensure she is not too stressed out ok? I need her to be healthy and fresh and radiant . hehe..

Here are a lil' quick updates ...

*Ellyssa and I were not bonding that well past few months/years because she hates it when I bully her. she just loves to cry and scream extravagantly just to express how bad she's being bullied by me. In other words, trying to get the "attention" from our parents. I know she secretly enjoys that. Getting the attention and seeing me getting scolded. =P but past couple of weekends, we've been bonding with each other pretty well.

* My sister , Eryanie is coming home from New Zealand next month ! I'm excited.

* Long distance relationships are pretty tough. I frequently get a little jealous to those couple who get to see their partners everyday or atleast 2 days once. For lunch, dinner , discussion etc etc etc..

But boyfriend and I had coped with that, so don't think it would be impossible at all.. =) and we were so used of being apart that he is immuned of missing me already.. WHAT? hahaha ! will write about LDR soon.

* Boyfriend and I are getting engaged in _ _ days more.. ( let me put a lil suspense alright? it has 2 digits BTW :P hehe )

InsyaAllah if Allah permits us to proceed to the next level.

Preparations were pretty hectic but I trust my mom. And internet is a very powerful tool of communication. We had been discussing online all the time =)

* I constantly sleep. I can't remember of being that tired !

* my eyelids kept BUZZING. super annoying ! always on the right side , alhamdulillah. but making me super anxious ! To all who had read my previous post , I know some of u had experienced the same thing. But if nothing significant happened, then it is not significant at all. Another example would be ; when u had a good aura of a person, and the person turned up to be good. And your aura or your senses had always been right all the time,, - then u would feel it is significant the next time u experience it. and so vice versa.

* I find tweeter too much tweeting. Girls just love to tweet all the time , don't they ?

will write more soon .. cheers y'all ~

we were there, yesterday. but we are here, now.

Time's ticking too fast that I've just realised that we all have grown up. So mature. So tall (or some remain small). So pretty. So elegant. So stylish. So independent. So responsible. So emotional too =p ?

When we were young, we could not wait to grow up. To become an adult. To work. To cook.

And so we played "cooking" ,"doctor-patient", *police and thief" and don't be surprised some of us acted like spice girls then. and power rangers too !

NOW? Most of us have already reached adulthood. Some still adolescent. I am an adolescent (for your information).

And friends that have started working are lazy to go to work.

Friends who are still in universities been complaining how workload is a torment.

Friends studying overseas are lazy to go out and eat, and even lazier to cook.

Medical students who eagerly wanted to become a doctor, at least to act like one were also not interested doing so.

We were totally screwed UP!

What happened through the journey of becoming an adult? As an optimist, one should think that life is too short to complain and to regret. But another pessimist would say , I HAVE NO LIFE ?

Ok what ever it is, life goes on right? But that is not the main thing that I wanted to write.

The questions that kept popping in our minds would be.......

Are we ready to become an adult? Would u be able to handle things without your parents? Are we ready to take all the responsibilities? Are we ready to pay all the bills? Manage our own account? Getting married? Raising up a kid? or children? Managing everything....ALONE.

and When would we consider ourselves adult-enough?

some of us are blessed with partners, some are not and few others prefer to live alone ,But serious speaking, we all need to build our own ground. To have a stable ground to start with. To have our own vision and mission. Each one of us need a base. Let it be a guy or a girl.

It just striked me when I was brought back to the past. When last time - I was a school kid, and then a bigger school kid, a junior medical student and now the senior most. and soon to be a DOCTOR. OMAIGOD !

I was a flower girl. and then a telur person. and now .... dot dot dot.

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Not a wife yet la, silly !

We are still growing. It is unstoppable. It is beyond our power to stop things from growing or to make a clock stop and freeze. BEYOND!

All we can do is try to become an OPTIMIST.

Because, you will only be ..

15 once.

18 once.

21 once.

30 once.

and if God permits us to have a long life, 100 ONCE. Whatever age we are now, at current , it would only be ONCE.

Yesterday occured ONCE. It will not repeat.

Hence, cherish every moments. Enjoy every work you are doing. Complain a bit, cry a little, and then move on.

And to all kids who may read this blog, ENJOY every moment of being a KID ! enjoy school and stop complaining about early rise, stingy prefects, annoying friends, or about getting bullied. JUST ENJOY !

P.S : To my beloved sister, Eryanie Effandie -- All the BEST for your Examinations !! You can do it !!

Sorry if I offended anyone in my writings. Have a great day !

not too great of a sunshine

it is extremely hot these days, don't you agree?

When you walked back from school or classes or work , going for a lunch or a meeting-the weather was unbearable. Especially when it was in the afternoon.

Extreme heat could be felt as though there were no shield between the sun and you. SUPER DUPER HOT up to a point I was convinced of going GREEN !

you know- don't use water heater excessively, go somewhere by car-pool instead of everyone driving alone, switch off the air-cond when not in use, use the life-saving light bulb instead of the opposite and etc etc etc.. UNTIL........................................ one of my friend advised me for 100% vegetarian =( *sob*

100% vegetarian is IMPOSSIBLE. I eat vegetables but not 100%-ly.

By becoming a vegetarian, you would save up the energy used to burned the meat. In other words, you protect the earth from global warming up to 50% by becoming a VEGAN.

OK, so I would not advised people to become a 100% vegetarian, but the least we all could do is reduced the usage of air-condition, and used all the light saving bulb and etc etc etc.

and then I thought, about how nice would it be if we were in a COLD, CHILL country e.g. newzealand, part of America, Europe, Japan, Russia, and all the four seasonal countries. It would be nice wouldn't it ? to not experienced the heat and sweats and dehydration .

Then, I pondered again. Living in a cold country does not make things any better either. Especially for me, as my skin are sensitive to cold. My skin itched and became dry. Very uncomfortable feeling. Same goes if I were to stay in an air-conditioned room for long hours. Lotion does not do it. ONLY body Butter does.

If you ask me, the best weather for most of us is RAIN. and after rain too ! before the sun starts heating up.

That is the best weather. Just rain without thunderstorms or flood. Rain without tornadoes. A simple, innocent, plain RAIN. simply the best.

Suddenly I remembered a story told when we were small, about a SUN vs a RAIN? or was it a SUN and CLOUD? and a BOY in it.

sacrificed for something great in return .

My friends are leaving for Sabah tomorrow, Friday 15th. I wished I could follow them but my mom advised me not to , since it was very near to one of the special occasion, hence she wouldn't want me to have bruises and bumps all over.

Today was pretty hectic. Not a very good day i would say. I needed to escape somewhere , therefore I thought of the girls plan for the weekend . I was very tempted of buying the ticket to Sabah. Lastminute ticket. I would not mind. As long as I am away from all the stressors, It would be GREAT. perfect remedy don't u think? a prefect weekend escape? :P

But after few seconds and minutes and hours, I pondered if it was worth it. OF COURSE IT WOULD.

However after weighing the pros and cons. The cons include a scolding from the big madam at home, which weighed the heavy most from all other factors - - - I inhaled and PUSHED the thoughts of going to Sabah. *pathetic*

BIG SIGH.

Despite all that, I've enlightened myself with plans for the weekends. I predicted it to be AWESOME.

A normal usual plans I would say, but as long as you spent it with the loved ones, the usuals would revolved to greatness.

My boyfriend has asked me for a date this saturday, YEAY !

pffftttt like 4 years already , why so YEAY-yie???.. that's because, every dates were like the 1st date. *grins*

please don't puke, please?

Who doesn't get excited going on a date with boyfriend? who? WHO?

Alritey, time to tug myself to bed. I would smile in bed as tomorrow is Friday and I am SUPER excited already !!

have a great weekend !! Be safe to those departing to Sabah, those driving back home or travelling away from home. Takecare =)

how embarrassed we were.

Last Friday, Ewanina (my sister) , Mimi (my besty) and I went to Pyramid to watch Eat.Pray.Love. Mimi insisted to watch that movie so I'd asked her to book ticket a day prior, knowing how packed cinema would be on a Friday night. and so she did.

We arrived at 830pm and the show is at 930pm. We collected our tickets which were Rm14/person. EXPENSIVE ! We just knew that ticket at TGV Pyramid has increased from usual RM8 to RM14 on friday & saturday night. Genius.

We bought pop-corns from the counter. 3 of us entered the cinema hall which was written cinema hall 2. As we entered, our seats were occupied. OH-OH ! did this fella accidentally gave 2 similar seats to different people.

We went outside to recheck if we were in the correct cinema. YES, HALL 2 !

So we asked the person seating for her ticket. SAME SEAT NUMBER SAME EVERYTHING. We went outside and inquired the TGV staff who were lingering around. he checked our ticket and it seemed that the date on the ticket was for tomorrow show. You know how small they wrote the dates on a cinema ticket, right? hehe we did not see that initially.

My thoughts blanked-out. Then tried redigesting the words slowly. Tomorrow? Thanked the guy and we walked towards the ticket counter.

While walking, my mind was raging with thoughts. Did the ticket person accidentally gave us the wrong ticket? or WAIT A MINUTE. Mimi was the one who booked the ticket.

Inhale. Exhale. Inhale. Exhale.

Reached the counter. And gave the booking ticket number again. And YES, she booked on the 9th which was the next day.. pfffttttt!! I was not angry at her. I was worried how senile she has become. HA-HA ! thank god it was mimi's fault. If it were to be the TGV, i Would ask for a compensation LOST. :P

We got out refund.

With popcorn in hand, we ate popcorns while coming down escalator, all the way to the parking area, & in the car. After discussing, we'd decided to go to One Utama.

Atlast, we watched eat.pray.love at OU , 1130 show. Show ended at 2am and we reached home around 230am.

Note: we finished eating pop-corn before reaching OU

we did not buy any pop-corn at GSC , One Utama.

It was a Night to Remember. Thank you Mimi for the great embarrasment :P i Love You ! and I know my sister Love u TOO!!

I have SIX SENSE !

Normal people would have 5 senses. But, I am not a normal person. Because I have 6 senses.

Some of them would claim they have 6th sense. They could sensed if something would go wrong, or predict a future of a person just by looking at them, read people's character, and etc etc etc.

My number 6 sense is my EYE. BUT, EYE is already in one of the normal 5 senses.

Eyes are used to see people, to make eye contact, to give gesture to people you communicate with, to stare, to watch movies, to look at your surroundings, to learn and to live.

So why EYE is my number 6 eventhough it is already in my usual 5 senses?

ok , STOP with the wild imaginations of seeing dead people , future, or black souls just like in the movie called THE EYE. Pretty eery if i were to have those senses. I don't think I could handle it.

I have this pretty cool senses with my eyes. They vibrates. NOT ALL THE TIME. Just sometimes, on certain occasions.

If it vibrated on the right side, it means fortune awaits. And if it vibrated on the left side, the opposite would occur. That was what my mom said.

Hence I analyzed everytime when it happened. And after few experiences, what my mom said was undoubtedly true.

When I was young, during high school years, the vibration of the eyelids don't occur as much. As i grew up, it occurred frequently and what my mom said was right, all-the-time.

For example, if my lids vibrated on the right side before my exams, I know my exams would be ok InsyaAllah and true enough, it did. If i were to flipped pages before exam, and the right eyelid fluttered while reading one of the topic, I would concentrate more because I know that the topic would come out. AND IT WAS TRUE.

Not just exams. If i were to meet my family, my parents , my boyfriend, and people whom i missed, the right eye vibrated.

If it pulsated on the left side, i know a misfortune would occur and it would ended with tears, fight, or emotional down-turned. So , if my left eye were to vibrate, i would usually be a little anxious of what might happen and tried to have a good mindset out of whatever coming. And it was true. It was either i got dishearted by people's comments, or got scolded by my parents, or just a misunderstanding with friends.

If prior to exams, it pulsated on the left side- i know i'm not going to excel. TRUE . it happened to me during my 1st year, 1st anatomy test. I was REALLY REALLY anxious when that happened. I studied hard.. harder.. and wished my right eye would start vibrating instead.. but it did not. and true enough, my first anatomy test was a BLUNDER. Thank god i did not mess my other examinations, especially the major ones, Alhamdulillah.

SO, whenever my eyes vibrated either left or right, I would be super-anxious about it. Because i know something is going to happen, good or bad depends on which eye that vibrated but I would not know WHAT.

Question? Is this hereditary?

I believe so YES. because my mom has it. and hers are pretty correct all the time too.

Any of you experience any 6th senses? come, share !

proud to be lazy. *smirk*

Dear all,

Weekends were freedom !! *freedom song playing at the back of my head*

Away from the stressful & hectic medical life. As Friday comes, my heart would leap in excitement as Friday means FLY-day. literally.

After Friday classes, I would zoomed back home. I know I have got to stop this habit of going home every-weekend. BUT, it's irresistable.

I have 2 cute sisters to buly back home. I have my bed, my room, my parents, my mom's cooking, my boyfriend, my life, my everything is back-at-home. I, who were in boarding school since form 1 till form 5 and in india for 2 years and the half --- you could labelled me SPOILT

Open houses were crazy this past few weeks. Everyweekend in Syawal month, at least one openhouse per day would have to attend. I, truly am blessed with great food & great hospitality.

However, I didn't complain about the fat I'm gaining. cause i needed it. i NEED fat ! how weird is that coming out from a girl? but i do really need to gain weight. i ate A-LOT , but i skipped meals A-LOT too.. hehe !

BUT, im really really really tired of going out for open houses already. I LOVE OPENHOUSES but if only openhouses invited people with pyjamas, spectacle, crazy-disorganized-hair-do, unpowdered face and 'selipar jamban' , i would go without a single complain !

The part to get-ready is the most "ma-fan" (tedious) part.

Everytime my family mentioned , "there's an openhouse on friday at ..... and Saturday at..... and Sunday at....."

And my boyfriend would also said almost the same thing, and we would have to organize our openhouses schedule so we could both attend all houses.

My response would be " alaaaa maaaaa..... can i not go??" or " alaaa sayang, can i not go??? "

In my heart, i wished for to just tug in bed, in my pyjamas, with the television on, and relax. (I'm that lazy, HUH????) . I am not LAZY ,i am a laid-back person. hehe !

But feeling guilty & bad for my own response, I went. hehe.. !

It does not matter what i think or what i responded beforehand, because in the end , i attended almost ALL openhouses anyways.

awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww, please be proud of me , please? :)

Enjoy your last week of Syawal everyone!