...whenever I think of the life after student-life.Which includes everything.
The wedding, the after wedding, the responsibilities as a wife, the work, the juggling btwn work & wifey duty, work , work, work..
OK, the work part is unimaginable. As a student, I have been going to hospital almost everyday for the past 3years. But it is not enough to give the clear picture what housemanship is all about .. DUH ! all we do is take case, present case, and study. JUST A CASE daily. Housemen usually take 20cases per day? or 50 ++ in outpatient? darn, i really don't know.
It is fun to graduate. To hear people call you doctor & congratulate for your 5years achievement. But actual speaking, it is a huge responsibilities. Handling lives are not as easy as handling money, computer, cars, pen & papers. You and me are a living object. We breathe, we grow, we live, we think, we remember and we have emotions.
But beneath all the scary eery feelings, it is still exciting to actually handle lives. Feels heroic ;))
I often think on how life would be after working. But nothing come to the picture. except for a big Question mark.
I'm not perfect, but I aim for perfections. Hence , I do plan for this and that but when it comes to life when working.. I could only HOPE. and pray ofcourse. For His eternal best most guidance & help.
What I hope is,, to be a good doctor and a good wife. A good daughter to both families and a good mother in future. These are my hopes. Words sounded so BIG with no clear picture in it. NO CLEAR PICTURE AT ALL..
Dr. Fadzilah Kamsah mentioned before. To aim for something, you have to have a clear picture. eg : I should say I want to be a good daughter by learning how to cook , rather than I want to be a good daughter. COOK is a picture. GOOD is not a picture.
hahaha! NOW, I can't give the clear picture. Because I have not experience most of the hopes except for being a daughter of Effandie & Khadijah.
There's a quote saying, "you will not know the depth of the sea until you enter the sea" .. I will not know what I will go through in future and how to handle them until I am in it.
Let's hope for the best , shall we ;))
4 comments:
good luck for everything in your life. May Allah guide you on the right path, insyaAllah :D
u can do it yana dear:)
trust me, when the time comes n all the listed responsibilities are on ur shoulder, u will know how to handle them and 1st of all Allah will help u as He always does.
i was in the same shoes as urs b4 i got married n pregnant now, but really things will be easier, iAllah
NORA: thankss noa !
ATHI: omgg thanks for the advice !! listening from someone who had gone tru so much , & with all positive stuffs, eased me a little ;)
nora*
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