next chapter : work !

induction just ended today .. which means, this is the last weekend to enjoy before I hit the next chapter in life !

say hello to everyday is the same day and weekend falls on any other day..
to no holidays for the next 2 months ..
to very difficult to get holidays..
to screw up biological clock..


reporting to Hospital Ampang this monday , october 3rd .. ;) If you see me , say hi ! cause i might not see u .. ;)
wish me luck !!

induction ..

is TOMORROW !!!!!!!!

i am super nervous.. nervous to receive the place i am posted at. that will only be told tomorrow....

however, despite being nervous, i am excited ! excited to work, to earn, to explore the world, to at last treat patients as doctors and not just an observer from the back line as a medical student..

after 6-7 months of sweetest most holiday, i am definitely hyped up and charged 100% !

I did not regret extending my holidays.. eventhough my experiences is slightly lesser, eventhough i earned a little later, i get to have my sweet time to rest and enjoy ! i know i deserve this.

All the while I haven't really had a good long break.

after SPM in 2004, i was sent off for 3months national service. Right after national service, SPM results were released and I enrolled at KDU college before I received my scholarship. I was supposed to go KTT in june, but I appealed to stay in KDU. i finished KDU at the end of 2005. 3 months later, I went off to india to commence my MBBS degree.

and there were no long holidays. longest were 5 weeks and i swear it was not enough.

Holidays has been great ! i get to help my mom , dad and others to prepare for my wedding, i get to marry without any oncalls or pending jobs on the line, i get to go for a short honeymoon at pangkor laut resort (awesome resort !) , i get to go to shanghai with hubby, i get to be a fulltime housewife, i get to act all datin-up  ; manicured,pedicured,spa,facial,hair and scalp treatment etc etc.. and i get to catch up with many many friends and families.

AMAZING .. !

this last few days being jobless will be spent properly as i will definitely miss this. once work is work till the end of time..

will keep u updated ;)

daa ~

housewife duty

For the past few weeks, Ijul and I were busy shifting from house to house. We were supposed to settle at his place in KL but since we just got married, it's better to be at family's place most of the time rather. Furthermore, it's Ramadhan now. Break-fasting with family is more happening than just the two of us. Unless, if we were on a break-fasting date ;) 

NEH !! do u actually believe what I wrote above?? LOL ..

I'm a spoilt kid and that is the main reason why we are still stuck at my parent's place and of course, his too (gotta be fair to him)

Few hours before going to KL, my mind starts thinking about so many things ! food to eat, clothes to wash, house to clean (the simple stuff) & when can import the maid to come help me clean, what to cook for hubby & is the ingredient ready.. and stuff like that.. ya know, the housewife stuffs.

Refreshed memories on the recipe , planned on what to cook for sahur,when to start cook, are all the ingredients there in KL?  and yada yada yada. It was pretty difficult in my case. at home, food is already there waiting for me to eat. I was worried sick. Afraid if I fail to please my husband. 


I could give myself few credits with the cooking skills that I have, but I'll save it once I'm a PRO ;) 

As we were about to go home to KL, my mother in law (stayed at his place during the weekend) offered the extra food from dinner to be brought home for sahur. I sighed in relief ! aaaaaaaaahhhhhhh , thank uuuuuuuuuuu ibuuu ! =D 

tomorrow morning, just need to re-heat the packed foods and cook rice ;) ahhh that would be easy brizzy ;) 

goodnight all ! 

took her awhile to adapt

Have I told you before how my siblings and I always sleep together almost everyday? since we were small actually.. except for days when i was at boarding school or abroad.


and that is one of the reasons they were sad when I got married. cos we can't sleep together anymore. 


Imagine four of us on a queen bed? however, one person needs to sacrifice and sleep on the floor since there are five of us. 


Ellyssa would always join the "sleepover-party" and has always been sleeping with me since I got back for good from melacca.


I would watch cartoons with her, watched her play games and yadayadayada.. 


She got adapted to the whole routine. 


comes to my room with a bottle of milk - play games - watches rapunzel or how to train dragon on my laptop - falls asleep


After our reception on 2nd of July, Ijul moved in and my room was out-of-bound.


Ellyssa was excited that her abang ijul is sleeping in the house and in my room. All the sudden, she asked , "Can I sleep with you and your prince?" 

p.s: i explained to her before getting married in words that she'll understand, 

" abang ijul is my prince and i am the princess. we are getting married and will live in a castle in KL." since then, she called ijul, "kakak's prince"

First few days.... she came to the room , chit chat with ijul. played games with ijul. and didn't want to go out. I had to shooh her to mom's room. 

Locked the door. 

She returned, knocked on the door few times.. we had to pretend sleeping and ignore the knocking.

Took her 3 weeks to adapt the out-of-bound rule. *chuckles*

Yesterday, Ijul went outstation for work and stayed there over-night. i invited Ellyssa to sleep together. 

She asked "your prince is not coming home tonight?" .. few times. I guess she had to make sure . hahaha

and we slept together last night. she was very very happy.

same routine. milk - games- this time no movie coz after game she fell asleep. 

the numbers that picked us ;) 1.JUL.11

How's puasa treating all muslims so far? Hope all are well and good ;)


It was our first time spending Ramadhan month together as husband and wife, and our 1st terawih & pre-dawned meal & break-fast were at my parents' place back in Subang Jaya.


Yesterday, 1st of August, marked our 1st month of marriage ;) We got married on 1st of July 2011.


Extra special that date. We didn't plan the date. That date chose US.


Initially, they'd planned our solemnization ceremony on 8th of july , just before my hotel reception (9th of july at that time , before we postponed to 17th july due to political rally). 


I didn't mind at all since 8 is also a special number.


8 NOV 2005 : was his first message to me
8 / 8 / 2006 : our first date
22 / 8 / 2006 : when he told me he wanted to take things serious. we moved from friends to in a relationship on this date.
8 / 8 / 2010 : when his family came for 'merisik'


See the EIGHTs? I love eight. but Eight wasn't for us..literally 


My family planned to have 2 receptions. solemnization~home reception~hotel reception. Hence, 8/7 is not a good date as things will be awfully packful & hectic to squeeze all 3 ceremonies in 2 days ! 


Another date proposed for us was 24/6 2011. I was okaaayy with it because of the pretty number 2.4.6 .. but nothing significant with that number. 


We told them we wanted 1.7.11. 


1JULY2011 - if we break it into half and ignore the second half, i'll get this 
--> 1JUL .. and husband's famous name is IJUL (remember?) that is why we love 1JULy2011 


another reason is because of that 1 infront and 11 at the back, make my card and cert looks nicer. =)) 
1 July 2011 ..


All of the sudden, my parents and his parents discussed and decided that 1st of July will be our solemnization ceremony ! yay !! 


I told dory-hubby that you will never have any reason to forget our wedding anniversary, because your name is on that date . he laughed.


Few days back when I was going to and fro from subang jaya / bkt jelutong to setiawangsa, I realized his house number is LOT 117.  there's a 1, there's 11, there's 7 !  AWESOMATIC ! 


see, the number picked us. Suggested to him to have our plate number 17 on our future cars  .. 


1st of july (1/7) , yes yes ! and and.. 


1+7 equals to...?? YES , EIGHT !  ;)) (literally our wedding date is not 8, but mathematically.. YES! ) 


magical isn't it? 


Alhamdulillah, everything is in Allah's hand and Allah has decided to give us pretty numbers on every special moments ;) 


To all muslims, husband and I would like to wish you a Happy Ramadhan ! May this fasting month brings us closer to HIM, makes us a better person, and tightens the bond between families and friends !! Happy fasting and may Allah blessed us all . We would like to apologize for any wrongs done. 

1.JuL two-oh-one-one

These past few weeks were very hectic ! Wedding preparations were madness !! Now that I was in "that" shoe few weeks back (and still is this week since there's another reception this coming weekend) , I totally understand weddings. 

Very tedious job. No matter how simple you planned your wedding to be, it will never be EASY. 

Guestslist were endless ! up to the date, guestlists will always be the main problem .. 

Apart from guestlists; invitations cards, food, canopy, dias decorations, room decorations, doorgifts, floor plans etc etc etc.. 

Once you're in 'that' shoe, you will understand what all the-brides had to go through before their wedding day. 


Cause I understood already and learned not to take invitations lightly, and will always keep any comments to myself (I'm not a criticizer but we always have something to say when we go somewhere :P ). Because hard-work should be appreciated eventhough they sometimes are not up to "taste" .. 

Despite all the hassle, nothing beats the happiness of the bride on that special day ! 

On 1st of July , 2011 was a very special date. A date where Ijul & I tied the knot, a knot to forever ;) a night to be remembered. With only one pronouncement, we are husband & wife, Alhamdulillah. 

My feelings before were very jumbled-up in a very good way . I was not at all in doubt, instead, I was SURE he is the one made for me. I was nervous to step into another new world, new life with big responsibilities as a wife.


I was sad. Sad that I might be a lil distant with my siblings & parents. Sad that my comfort zone will no longer be comforting as much. 


But despite all that, I was happy and excited :) 


It was a bliss, a wonderful feeling to have the one I love as my husband, to have my man to look up to, and my bestfriend to live with for eternity. May Allah blessed us all the way, amin.

will update more soon ;) 

treat points

I have been using my personal credit card for almost 3 years now. And I didn't know that they have POINTS that can be redeemed!! *slapsface*


I knew that I have points when I shopped in One Utama late last year, and the cashier asked if I would like to redeem my points. My heart jumped gleefully as I needed to pay few bucks instead of few hundreds.. I USED ALL OF MY POINTS @ Warehouse, OneUtama not knowing there are other cool stuffs to redeem !! oh gosh........ 


So few months back, I login to Maybank2u.com.my , checked my balance and I saw the points !!!!! How on earth did I not realize the points marked blue on the screen of my balance =( oh-my-god.. 


I clicked onto it and they redirected me to treatpoints page. 


There were so so so many amazing things that can be redeemed !! I got blind for a while. But my points were too little then.


The genius me, as always, had ideas to increase my points. So what I do was to SWIPE intelligently ! 


Intelligently by all means were to swipe as many times but not having much credit on the card !


HOW?


by swiping credit card and then login m2u later at night after done with shopping and pay what I swiped immediately (on the day itself) . 


Or if I want to buy something which requires a huge sum of money, I deposit the big sum into my creditcard via ATM cash deposit machine , and went to the shop and swiped that amount. VOILA !


see the point?


oh well, I don't know if it works but my points seemed to increase :) been monitoring them since I was AWARE of the points .. pfftt!




Now my points are 30k.. I need 76K points ! Something caught my eye and I need 76K points to redeem "IT" !!!! will share it here once I have succeed ! wish me luck?


Moral of the story, please check your m2u creditcard points and use them WISELY.. 

journey to becoming a bride

a bride to be needs to prepare physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually before the big day. And my maids seemed to play important role too !

One of them used to scrub or what the indonesian called 'lulur' me. She is pretty amazing. I used to do 2 days once but lately, NONE! since I woke up extremely late and she has other important work to do than scrubbing me ... thanks bibik ! pfft

She also advised me to drink sireh.. *pukeface* ... sireh???really?? 

and another maid this morning while cleaning asked me to drink air pinang muda.. -_- 

Just few minutes ago after the maid suggested air pinang muda, my mom informed me that all kind of limes are downstairs. limau kasturi la. limau lipis la.. i guess i'm gonna soaked my whole body with those later this evening.. 

don't come near me this evening. I might turned you ehem on with the lime smell  ! *batting eyelashes* 

shopping-craze..NOT!

There's a BIG FAT SALE going on at AirAsia.. tempting....................
But my pocket ain't full to grab them ... *sadface*


"neehhh it's ok. They have promotions almost every month. plus, it's AIRASIA.. not EMIRATES or MAS " . Monologued to make myself feel good .. haha!


Money flows like water these days especially when the big day is coming really near. I felt guilty for the cash burden I've put my parents into. And I always tell them that I'll pay them when I'm rich *insyaAllah*.. and that the wedding is for their beloved daughter .. *grins* I will never ever survive without them. No kidding. I love you mom & dad


Shopping seemed pretty tempting these days too !! gosh, can't the devil stay quiet so that I'll be an angel till I receive my first pay? 


I was born genius and so I've found my way out. 


1st. : Always go to shops which are not too pricey but worth buying. My favourite place nowadays were 'cotton on', 'forever 21' and flee-market @thecurve during the weekends. Too pricey are those below rm100.. or buy 1 get 1 free kinda thing.


2nd. : Always have only few cash in your purse. Probably RM100 ... So that you'll be lazy to go to the ATM.. but, hmmmmmm credit and debit card always got into the way.. darn!


3rd : Always go shopping with someone who is shopping craze.. Not that they'll influence you but you will influence her ! Channel your craze to her so that she buy stuffs.. and help her choose !! it feels good when your pocket still full and hers/his is empty.. *evilgrin*


4th : If you are doing online shopping,go busy elsewhere,  far far away from the laptop/pc after checking out the items chose . You might have forgotten about the cart you'd checked out. 


5th : patience... Good stuff comes to those who waits !


hope these few tips help ! 

lazy-bride-to-be

I love night. The only time where I get THE time all by myself. No disturbance.... except when Ewanina talks in her sleep. pfft

I watched series. Read blogs. Wrote blog.. writing one now. But most of the time, I watched series. Bit lazy to do any readings at night. My sleeping time is 3am and woke up usually about 10am.. :-s YIKES!

OKAYYY DO.NOT.SAY.ANYTHING.

My mom nagged massively regarding this.

"you're getting married soon!!!"

"you should start practicing to wake up early !"

and yada yada yada...

and since I watched movies/series everynight, my youngest sister, Ellyssa followed my footsteps. 

We slept late and we woke up LATE. but she woke up even LATER.. hfffmmm..

and then she went, 

"SEE , you'd influenced your sister!"

Now , Ellyssa cannot sleep before watching atleast one movie.. Her night rituals were to watch 'How to train a dragon' & 'The Tangled,Rapunzel'.. And I had to watched with her till she sleeps before watching MY SERIES/MOVIES.. *sigh*

I enjoyed being "spoilt".. WHEN ELSE WILL I ENJOY THIS? definitely not, especially once start working. 

well, here are few friendly advice from lazy-bride-to-be. 

To all ladies who are getting married soon, ENJOY !!! 

enjoy the bed ALL BY YOURSELF. enjoy the time ALL BY YOURSELF. enjoy being lazy and smelly. enjoy sleep-overs with girlfriends! (ohh, i've been doing this often ! almost every weekend !!) 

and most importantly, do enjoy all the time you have left with your family. you will still see them, hang out with them, spend time with them but you will not be the kiddish,immature,loud-YOU with your family once married, will u? shall put-up a lil "mature"-act then? he he he! 

ENJOY GIRLS! cause I'm enjoying MY TIME.. watching series now !!! daaa~ 

where are you staying..

after marriage is another famous question these days.. 

Initially, I thought of staying at my parent's place for maybe a year. My mom suggested 2 years minimum as she is not ready to let me go yet. *weep*

Ijul & I discussed thoroughly , ..... 

neh, I do all the thinking thou and I would tell him what I feel and he would say what he feels but eventually he would agrees to what I decide. 

Being the first daughter in the family, and a sister to the siblings, especially the last two since they are still small , Ijul respected my decision. As long as some of the days at his parent's place too. 

So we decided weekdays my place, weekends his.. 

and then we decided 4 days here, 3 days there..

and then we decided some days here and some days there...

For some reason, I feel it is difficult to stay permanently at parent's place. My work is haywire, his work is also tangled-wire, and staying at parent's place would be too comfortable and I would be too dependent. Food is there. Maid will help to do all the washings cleanings etcetera. 

My house where I live currently, there is noway-hozay to privacy. Everybody just enters everybody's room. We all 'lepak' in each others room. My parents room will be packed with kids lazing around on the bed with dad and mom would be on the computer or prolly on the bed too during day-time. At night, my room will be packed. 

Oh tell me about talking to the phone at night in my room ... IM-POSS-SI-BLE !! seriously. All the noise they made, the fights they had and all will be shouting for my name so that I will end the fight. 

-____________-

I wouldn't be surprised if the smallest sister would knock on my our door at night, "Kak E, can I sleep together?" 

-______________-

yeah, the three of us sleep together everynight. Ellyssa (the smallest one), Ewanina (2nd last) and I.. 

Back to the question.. 

Honestly speaking , I really don't know how to answer. So when people asked, I would say ..."well, both places and then his place in KL" 

The parent's old-house where the family stays previously is his now. He stays there during the weekdays since it is very near to the office. 

For now, we have decided to stay my place after marriage. His parent's place few days before groom-side reception and then probably few days here and there and there. 

Maybe we will settle down to one place once I have start working. Hoping to get hospital nearby his place in KL , so then it would be easier for the both of us to meet under one roof .. 

Parents place? Well, both of them stay 15 minutes away. As long as we are fair to each other..  Except for when I horribly missing them, that he has to sacrifice =p my place XD hehe!!

oh wow, serious decision making huh ? 

deferring

I'd crushed my sister's dream in my previous post hence I deleted it. Aww sis, Didn't mean to hurt u :P

I've received my induction letter last week to attend induction course held on 3rd may (today) till 6th May. I appealed to defer.

I was pretty tight up with wedding preparations and catching up with friends last week and only come to realize that I need to follow up ! and I only realized that on Friday NOON!

I rushed to call them but it wasn't easy that day.

and monday was a public holiday! bummed !

Just few minutes ago, I called ministry of health again to double check, because the previous officer that I talked to on Friday was a lil stingy and strict and made me feel extremely horrible for postponing. The officer allows and asked me to call again once I'm ready to attend.

phew ! A HUGE relieved ! The thought of not been able to postpone tortured me through out my weekend.

To all my colleagues , Good Luck on attending induction course and all the best pursuing work as a Doctor !! So excited for all of you !! I wished I could join you all today! I'll see you in one of the hospitals hopefully. Hoping for some tips later ya ? Take care & keep in touch !

zura's akademik

We attended kursus kahwin at Zura's Akademik , Bangsar last month on the 26th and 27th of March, 2 days after umrah. There was not much time to think and wanted to get it done with without delaying it further. Close friends promoted Zura's and gave good reviews. So, why not.

.....

Trust me the reviews were all bull ! Zura's akademik is over-rated and not up to the expectations. To MY expectations.

They have been running for yeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrssssssssssssssss , and with the money they received from the participants,why can't they upgrade their PLACE ? Not to say that I'm the upper-end-girl but oh, common.. Just upgrade it already and give us a proper place instead of very dark, dusky, dusty, old room ... Unless if you're new in this line and not much income to rent a good place, that I would understand. OK maybe not change a place, but RENOVATE maybe?????

and the food... well, it's good already that they provided us......

During the talk, some of the Ustaz were trying really really hard to make jokes but oh my.. SUPER-LAME. How can you simply make jokes about DEATH? That is pure immoral.

Example .." If you want to die together, you die in an accident" .. !@#$%^&*()???????? and people laughed at those lame jokes. oh-my-GOD!

Only 2 teachers that made me listened through out the whole course. I listened only 2 hours out of ~18hours of talk ! I hear other people talking but not listening to them. Different.

And 50% is about how to write the forms.. What to do and how to go about it with the forms ..

Repeat again and again and again and again !!! We are not KIDS so why not just give a paper that stated all the instructions and leave it to US? why not focusing on husband's & wife's responsibilities to each other and family instead of babbling the same procedures ???!!!!

WASTE !!

and speaking of forms, my Ustaz in Subang Jaya has already reminded me that do not take the form of "perakuan bujang" or something. The form that stated you as single and have not yet married prior to this. My ustaz mentioned to not take the form as it is not in the latest procedure but the organizer there forced us to take and pay rm10 and scare us with what will happen if we don't fill in the form. RM 10 to pay for that form that is NOT used anymore !! that form is OLD procedure.

Babbling procedures for hours and asked us to fill a form that is not in the latest procedure...

Don't talk about procedures if you don't know the procedures. I know my ustaz is saying the truth because he is a juru nikah in Selangor.

They forced us to buy our group photo as EVIDENCE, in case they lost our records.. and photo is about rm20 ? can't remember !

and LOST? How can they LOST the records? you have run for what, 20 years? 30 years? and have this lost-of-records problems??

and FORCED us to buy our attendance slip which cost few cents or ringgit.

Zura's Akademik is over-rated, low-standard, and asked us to pay unnecessary things which I believe is for themselves.. and yet did not upgrade their place , but prolly have time to upgrade their cars.. probably..

and just yesterday I called them to ask the photo size for nikah certificate ...

Me: boleh saya tahu berapa size photo untuk sijil nikah ?

Receptionist: oohh saya tak pasti. Kami hanya keluarkan sijil kursus kahwin bukan sijil kahwin.

Me: Tapi kursus awak ni pasal kahwin kan???

Receptionist: .... Maaf cik

proof of stupidity ..

the angel that saved me

my boyfriend then. my fiance now. my love always...

that is how I addressed him here, in my blog.

His family calls him ijul. His friends call him Fizo. I modified a bit here there, and decided to call him Egol in my blog.

My besty heard and went , "EGOL??? sounded like a fat-fish" -_- .. She's very kind in giving opinions and reviews that girl..

Oh well, until I find a cuter name for him, I'll stick to Egol ;)

I was a lil shy when I started blogging, hence I didn't write much about Egol.

He's 3 years older.. wait.. Egol does sound like a fish.. eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.. Let's call him Ijul lah... safer and cuter too.. I'll find some other cute name later..

....

And so.. He's 3 years older than me. did degree in business and currently Alhamdulillah, he's doing great!

We became friends end 2005. We talked & shared many many stories. I sensed chemistry between us , and he became my bestfriend along the way.

Approximately 10 months later, we became officially together. Took our relationship to the next level, what "kids" nowadays call them boyfriend-girlfriend ..

He has been the sweetest guy , e-vah ! and it has nothing to do with flowers, chocolates, kinky poems & letters, nor romantic candlelight dinner with violin played by the side.

He has his own charms that I have witnessed along the way, that captured my heart.

Soft with his words, lame jokes and still laughed at his own jokes, never once he raised his voice, always compensate, sincere in everything, and have great passion in everything that he does. He was the one that gave me the strength to overcome the stress through out my rough years in medical school. His words were simple but has very deep meaning that it made me ponder. Not just words that comfort. Words that made me think and made me chose my paths.

and because he is soft spoken, it influenced me to speak like him when we're together. My family were totally opposite. We don't speak softly. We screamed and joked and laughed out loud at home. gosh, RIUH !

He forms the better me. and though I've got many guy friends as compare to girls, I shall confidently say that I've never met a guy, as pure & sincere as he is in my life. and I could not thanked Allah as much. Alhamdulillah, my prayer has been heard =)

cartoon II ..

My convocation falls on the same date as my wedding reception !!!!!! *jawdropped*

OH-EMM-GEE !!

I called my college one morning to clarify some stuffs and the staff mentioned that my convo is on _ of july ! *GULP*

However, my convo will be held in the morning and end around 2-ish PM .. BUT it will be in Melacca. and my wedding reception is at night, so..hmmmm...

And then I thought, maybe I should skip this convo. So much hatred towards the college and their suckiest management ever, I wouldn't mind skipping..

Then again, IT IS CONVOCATION DUDE !! receiving a degree certificate for once in a lifetime!! (unless of course if I were to take another degree after)

Degree in Bachelor of Medicine and Surgery some-more ! I would not want to miss it , would I?

Random, stressful thoughts intrude my mind.

Night before is akad

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I gotta wake up early for convo

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Who's gonna drive me there

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Will I make it on time

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What if something bad happen

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aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa I don't want anything bad. SHHH mind SHH.. InsyaAllah everything is going to be okay !

O'Allah Ar-Rahman Ar-Rahim. Permudahkan lah urusanku. Lindungi lah aku dan semua orang yang aku sayangi dan kasihi. amin.

Looking at the bright side, i'll be having 2 celebrations in one-day !! and and, I could have all my friends who started working to attend my reception since they will be off-ed day that day ! YAY !!

al-sudais in KL

Syeikh Abd Rahman al-Sudais (Imam of Masjidil Haram)

will recite Khutbah & lead the Jumaat's pray

at Masjid Wilayah tomorrow (22/4/11) ..

I want to go !!!!! :((

cartoon !!

I can't stop laughing at myself and everything happened in the past and going to happen in the future. Everything planned simply goes haywire. Or I prolly love them go crazy !!

When I was in India, we had twice a year of semester break which lasted 3 weeks each. and every seconds of holiday is PRECIOUS ! I never stayed back for a semester break. And what I did back then was to go back right after exams! By hook or crook, I would take the next flight. Packing is never my problem though.

Took a taxi an hour after exam to mangalore airport, about 2 hours drive. Then waited for domestic flight from mangalore to bangalore, 45minutes flight. And took the international flight at night. Arrived KUL next morning at 7am.

Before exams, I would be the one making myself busy , asking around the exact exams schedule, climbed up to the air-ticketing office, grab wtvr flight. I don't care about the prices since scholarship is doing all the payments *grins*

and I did the same on my last day in Manipal , after my last paper. I didn't stay back to take pictures or see teachers. PACK and GO ! *ROFL*

And this rushing up things, go cartoon around is still happening. GOSH !

In melaka, well.... its kinda routine to rush back after Friday class. And what happened recently was after my final paper.

People would usually stayed back with friends etc right? me? nu-uh. For some reason, I just want to go home home home and relaxxxxxxxxxxxx... Pretty stressed up huh?

So after my final MBBS exam, last day was my short case in Muar. Took our college bus back to campus from Muar, packed, and GO vroooommm back home. Since I'll be having interview the following week, I need not to worry about my leftovers. and takenote, I didn't know my result after my shortcase. Results were released 2 days after my shortcases. Confidently go home.

Results were out. My friends called to informed that I passed !! HOOYAAHH!! went out for dinner with family. Few days later, went back to college with my certs ready for interview, and I brought my cousin along to help me with packing XD

A day before interview, arrived Melacca at 6pm +. We packed non-stop.

mess!

just chucked everything *peace*

Rushed for quick dinner with cousin + friends. Continued packing till midnite.

that beg was awfully heavy!

phewww ! I didn't even revise any single thing for my interview.

Woke up next morning, a wee late but made it on time. 8am dot. My turn was a bit later so I memorized some stuffs from friend's notes.

Interview went alhamdulillah well. Met few lecturers.

the famous Prof MVKumar

the cool psychiatry members + one community medicine

Did some last minute packing, chucked everything in my mom's Estima. Went for lunch with my groupmates and zoomed back to KL.

Unpacked some stuffs. Went for last minute shopping for my Umrah. Went off to Mekkah 4 days later.

Andddddddd this story doesn't end here. to be continued ..

famous question these days is..

" When are you going to start working ? "

I wouldn't mind answering that. Honest ! But........................

My answer is pretty lengthy you see. And I'm a very lazy person. Hence, that question is a big burden for me to answer.

Since people asked too often, I can answer them in my sleep already. Same sentence. All memorized :P

What annoys me is the question or critic after answering.

To get there, let me rewind few sentences behind.

So when people asked , "When are you going to start work" ..

" Oh well, I just graduated in March and usually government would give us 3months holiday after graduation so prolly they call me for induction in June, and work starts immediately after induction. And since July is my wedding, I'm going to defer myself till after wedding. So I'll start in September"..

"Why September?"

"July is Wedding, August is fasting month, September is raya, so after raya would be nice to start work"

Do you know how difficult for a doctor to ask for a leave? We work 7 days a week. And to start work during fasting month would be extremely tiring since I'm not used to the workloads and schedule.

I feel that the best for me is to start work after raya. Maybe not after the whole month of Raya, but few days to one week, or maybe two weeks of Raya.

And it is my decision anyway.

Then , they'll start asking

"Ok ke , after kahwin you kerja? no time you know"

"Why start lambat? seniority bla bla bla"..

-_- pfft..

Of course I know there won't be time for me at home much especially first few years of working but its not like I work 24hours a day everyday. And do you think I have time to date after working if I'm not married? At least , once married, I can see my love at home. Because home is where I go to after work.

I never give excuses to postpone marriage. To me, marriage is something pure and blessed. It is something that should not be postponed for long.

I believe that everything will follow tru once you are married. And I believe that life is more prosper after marriage , insyaAllah .

mikasa a sukasa

When I read about my zodiac sign , the part where it mentioned LEO is a HOME person. My response was, " no way ! " .. and that was 10 years or more ago.

and now, I agree to that statement. No kidding ! I am a home person !

I do go out, DU-UHH! But I prefer staying home. I like to stay in bed, under my comforter and read story books or just snooze. I love the fact that I need not to worry about how I look, powder-ed or not, hair combed properly or not, shorts, sleeveless, yeah what-ever I really don't care. Because, mostly are girls at home ! except for my brother who is studying in UK currently, and my dad.

I also loved it when there is cooked food in the kitchen and need not to worry about lunch or dinner. Snacks are just a hand away too ! gosh, I love home !

Lazed around watching TV or simply doing nothing but just rest and relax. Simply blissful.

Even when I was in campus, I prefer to stay home and watched movies. I would order in or cook, and lazed in the room. Time flies super fast when you're lazing around !!

But that is not the whole point. I love having the time all by myself ! I simply enjoy when nobody is there to disturb me, to control my schedule, to throw tantrums at me when they see me being lazy and irresponsible, to order me here and there. OH BLISS ! Just imagine, you. alone. doing nothing. just rest and relax. oooooooooooohhhhhhhhhh , soothing !

and yeah, the time all by yourself could also include spa, and sunbathing by the beach or just sleep.

Since I'm getting married soon, I don't know if I will ever have the time to do nothing but just being plain lazy. I really DON'T mind if my husband and I watched TV together, or read newspaper and story books together.

Do not labelled me as lazy. Of course I wouldn't mind doing the house chores. Everyone has their responsibilities that they can't run from, could they?

Once in a while sitting and lazing around would be really nice.

Are you a home person ?

what season now everyone ?

it's DURIAN season y'all and i've been craving for them since then !! Guess durian and I have some connections since I craved for them on the right time .. =)

I love durian since ... for-e-vah ? *ROFL*

Despite the smell, I LOVE THEM ! It taste real good, impossible to get enough of them.

I bet durian lovers out there understood what I'm trying to convey.

Durian has grades and types which you really have to taste a few to get the best one ! I could eat a lot a lot a lot until my body starts heating up.

You do know that overdose of durians may heat up your body , right ? However, there is a way to prevent this. By pouring water into the part of durian after the seed is removed, And you drink the water from it. That would do it, the traditional way. Of course not pouring the water onto the spiky parts. It's neither possible to retain the water,nor drinking from it too :P

My fiance dislikes durian, the opposite of me. I have asked him to bring me out for durian countless times and ... Of course he wouldn't say "No" straight away.

"Ok I'll bring you but , I'll just watch you eat.."

But he was super busy that he doesn't have the time to bring me out (yet, i presumed =D)

And I have not stop bragging :P

His last response was

" When we are married, I'll grow a Durian tree behind our house so that it would be easier for you to eat " ..

I can hear you saying AWWWWW to his statement. Think again, he wants to grow behind our house? In other words, he'll be lazy to bring me out for durian and so behind the house is convenient FOR him..

pfttttt :P nicely put sayang .. blueekk !

Still craving hereeeeee... Hope to get them one of these days before the season ends !!

district hospital

It's a compulsory for all doctors to do their 'district' posting for 2 years now. Whether as a houseman, medical officer or a specialist.

The weird thing was, as long as it is outside KL and Klang Valley, it is consider as 'District'.. pfft ! Kuala Kubu Baru, Kuala Langat, Hulu Langat, or Hulu Selangor is not consider as 'district' enough.. !@$#%^&*((&^%$#@#!! ..

To argue is POINTLESS.

No matter what the reasons are, no matter how strong your cable is, it is a must to go outside Klang valley for 2years .

*faint*

I am still in DENIAL state =( who would want to go away from home, family and close friends =( no fun like that.

I've been contemplating too, whether to do outside KL first 2 years HO or do next 2yrs during MO. My instinct so far has made me choose KL for the first 2 years of housemanship.

One of the reasons is because my wedding is just few months away and I would love to stay near to my future husband for the first 2 years. All the while, we have been through long distance. KL-UK, India-UK, India-Malaysia, Malaysia-Malaysia but twas Melaka-KL. Hence, it would be nice to stay near for the first 2 years.

Second reason is, housemanship is no doubt the toughest year compare to other years of working. I don't know if I could go through it alone or not.. There are friends around but I bet most are friends that I just meet, hence shall I trust? That person is reliable or not? After all, we are rocking in the same boat. Doom boat. All stressed up and tired and bla bla bla, don't think they would be there for me when I need a shoulder to cry on. We prolly cry together !!

With family , BFFs and hubbywubby around, as my back bone to support me along the way, motivate me when I'm down would be great ! At least, when I do district posting for 2 years during MO, I'll be more matured, more experienced, and more stable in terms of work.

I've told my fiance about this long time ago and I'd reminded him few times. Not to scare him , but to make him set his mind about it. It's a lot easier to handle things when your mind is prepared for it, rather than surprised by it. Correct no?

For now, let us not think too far. Mr. F and I would love to take things as it comes. One step at a time. If we think too far ahead, we might not enjoy the present moments. and, Let's hope the policy changes in 2 years time ;) amin !

below 200

I've got two numbers. One from celcom and the other from DIGI which I applied just few months back. Celcom is under my dad's office since we applied in bulk and they'd promise us a good service & plans & payment .. I've been with celcom since Form 2 (14 years old).

Since Celcom has always been under my dad, I couldn't care much. Until.... I received calls from my dad nagging and complaining on my usage. And, that was during kiddo-years when phone is the "in-thing" and to use a handphone is "cool" ..

Last year or maybe a year and a half ago, I applied for BIS (blackberry internet service) under celcom and since then I monitored my bills. Not directly monitoring, but through my dad's secretary.

What upsets me was when I clearly told them that I wanted an unlimited service, but they charged me as per used for that month. I called them and demanded for unlimited service, and so they charged as 'unlimited' then.

However, my bills are still high ! When all I used were BBM, Whatsapp, Facebook, and few sms-es and local calls for not more than 12hours a month. Ridiculously high!

Despite of these problems, I refused to change to other than celcom.

Ijul gave me a handphone last year on my birthday, and it gave me an idea to have two numbers :) and so, I took Digi for my second line.

Digi provides the best offer as far as I've surveyed. Unlimited internet for rm68 + rm10 for BIS. and I grabbed it without thinking further. Because I know, Maxis & Celcom offered more than rm100 for unlimited internet + BIS .

Since I took Digi for internet & BIS, I asked Kak Ena (dad's secretary) to cancel my BIS plan under Celcom. When I checked my bill a month after cancellation, it was still HIGH ! I remembered I didn't use much , and still get scolded from my Dad since it was extremely HIGH ! I nearly chocked when I heard the figure !!

I called CELCOM center and they said tht my plans are still active.. and, even if I didn't cancel BIS, it is impossible to have a bill THAT HIGH. totally ridiculous.

I called Kak ena , wanted to attack her but I hold it back. I asked if she did cancel my BIS. She said she did. However, no black and white confirmation. and I asked her to help me re-check.........

True enough, that officer didn't cancel the plan. and so after, plan was cancelled. BUT, bills still not up to my expectation. HELLO? I am not using INTERNET nor BIS .. just SMS , and not much calls.. above rm200 is simply RIDonkeyLOUS.

Asked for a favor from Kak ena. and she checked for me and do you know what these buggers did......??? *long sigh*...

*huge sigh*

They added another plan into my whatever plans I had initially minus the BIS. -_- without my permission...

I was eeeeeeeeeeeeee angry lerr.. Though it wasn't me who is paying , but I was a lil concern with my bills ..

Kak Ena cancelled on wtvr plans they simply added..

and today, Kak ena smsed my bill for this month and alhamdulillah, I managed to safe ! rm150 ! that is definitely rare.. Usually, it always exceed rm200.. Use or not much of usage. weird..!

Digi has been really kind to me and 78 per month for many many BBMs , whatsapp, and facebook is really worth it ! and I still keep my celcom. For the sake of loyalty , ehem ;))

I could barely open my eyes.. and so, goodnight everyone ;)

to understand is to read..

As I grew older, from a teenager to adolescent to young adult, I started to have deep thoughts about everything. It started of when my non-muslim friends asked me about Islam. Some I could answer, but most are with gaps and holes and with a "maybe" ..

I dislike myself. Its my religion and why am I not well equipped?

I prayed for guidance. I have so many questions in mind but hesitated to ask. A "maybe" is never my likening.

During my stay in Mekkah, on the 5th day, I went Subuh alone, since my mom headed early for Qiam. I saw my line was partially full hence I called these 2 ladies who were just about to sit behind my line, to sit next to me so that my line will not be empty.

After Subuh we chatted. I enjoyed talking to Aunty Nurul. She reminded me of my Bahasa Melayu tuition teacher when I was in primary 6. We chatted and mostly about Islam.

It started of with how Islam is actually simple and sometimes, the community makes it complicated. She added that she follows the Quran, Sunnah & authentic Hadith.

What attracts me was when she said,

" There is no 'maybe' in Islam. It is either yes, or no. And there is no need to do extra things. What is permitted for us to do, we do. example, Rasulullah (saw) washed his face once, twice or thrice but never 5 - 6 times. "

She added,

" what is more important than praying is to ponder upon Allah's creation & wonders. "

.. Her words just made me calmer and settled.

She recommended me a few books. The three of us went to the book shop after asar that day , and she adviced me to buy "Bulugh-Al-Maram" ..

I never heard of this book but it contains the Al - Quran, Sunnah Rasulullah (saw) and authentic hadith. I glanced tru it and every chapter about solat, fasting, water for purification, marriage & etc.. every single thing, day to day practice, is there.

I also bought Islamic guidelines on Medicine, a DVD of Syeikh Yusuf Estes, just one of the episode since I never heard of him but heard good reviews of him. And aunty Nurul also gave me a book for daily wirid as a gift. So sweet of her.

I've read Bulugh-Al-Maram. Not entirely, but few chapters of it.

Comments- A very very very good book ! It explains in details. A very good reference and guidance. Now, I have attained a little understanding on what I'm doing. Not just do for the sake of doing it. And most importantly, no more confusion between Religion & Tradition.

I would strongly adviced all Muslims and to those interested in Islam, to get that book. Bulugh al-Maram. You can get it in any Muslim Book shops e.g. dawah corner, PJ.

I am not pious. However, it is never wrong to learn and understand more. and I hope you would do the same ;)

Alhamdulillah, truly am glad to meet Aunty Nurul & Kak wan :)

it was my first. best holiday ever !

13 mac 2011, my parents & I went to Mekkah for Umrah, and it was my first. We said our 'niat' few minutes before the plane passes Qanulmunazil. In Jeddah, our plane landed at the Hajj terminal due to the high numbers of people entering Jeddah for Umrah at that time.

after arrival @ the Hajj Terminal, Jeddah Airport

From afar, on the way to the hotel, I had a glimpse of Masjidil Haram, the unduly special Mosque to all Muslims. It contains the Kaabah, Allah's house and its the 'kiblat' where our directions of prayers are. It is the place where all prayers goes direct line to God.

The glimpse of it palpitates me. My mind goes blank. Excited and afraid, mixed. It was just a few seconds before we enter the tunnel to enter the Hotel.

On 2nd day , after Subuh Prayers. One of the buildings is ZamZam Hotel

As we reached Zam Zam Hotel, we gathered our bags, prepared for prayers & umrah and off to Masjidil Haram. Just a 5 minute walking distance. Took a lift down from the hotel lobby and walked for a few steps and THERE it is, masjidil haram standing right infront of our eyes.

In PJs for Subuh prayers , wrapped in Jubah ;) Masjidil Haram

While walking towards the entrance, i started tearing up . Palpitated again. My nose clogged with secretions. My mind was blanked except for one thing, to meet Allah.

Of course we pray everyday, but at that point of time, praying in front of Kaabah was totally

different and it definitely felt special.

As I enter , I say a lil prayer by following the book as a guidance to us (a doa while entering masjidil haram). I walked further in, and there I saw infront of my eyes, the Kaabah.

Allah hu akhbar, Allah hu akhbar, Allah hu akhbar.

It rained on the 3rd & 4th day

speechless.

After zhur, Mom & I went to circumambulate (tawaf) the Kaabah 7 rounds.

Tears didn't stop running down this cheek. I felt honored to be one of Allah's guest. I felt extremely small. I seek forgiveness wholeheartedly and asked for many many things as only He knows the future.

Niat. Tawaf. Sai'e. Tahalul.

These are the rukun for umrah. Alhamdulillah it went smoothly. My legs ache after 1st time umrah. Subsequent Umrah, it felt nothing. No complains of any ache anywhere.

3rd Umrah, after completed Sai'e

View from my Uncle's appartment when we pay Tok Chom a visit. Beautiful !

I love Mekkah so much ! The Masjidil Haram's mosque is never empty. People circumambulate the Kaabah every seconds ! This is the city that never sleeps, for only the good purpose. To pray to Allah.

In mekkah, only Muslims are allowed to enter. I see various people from everywhere across the globe. I may not know who you are or where you are from (except for when you're wearing a beg with country flags etc) but I know one thing, you're a muslim.

Few minutes before the praying time, jemaah starts to walk to the mosque. Shopkeeper starts closing their shops. I've only read it in books that they close their shops during praying time but there, I see in reality.

All shops are closed. Malls are not empty but shops are closed. People walking through the malls to the mosque. People who are late, do their jemaah outside the mosque stretching to the roadside and inside the malls.

Jemaah outside the mosque

Everybody respects praying time there. Here, we see people still commencing their work and duty. They still pray but not at the earliest after the Azan.

There, when it is azan time, everybody goes to Masjidil Haram and pray. Except for maybe the receptionist at the hotel.

Another reason I fell in love with this place is because everybody is so focused, including myself to pray and to devote self wholly to Allah.

Prayers go on a highway, direct line to Allah. Just ask, and He will make it true, insyaAllah. And because of that, we had to watch everything we say or do or think. Because Allah is nearest to us there and things do come true in a blink.

our 3rd umrah.

I asked for many many things and some did come true just after saying it.. e.g. ' I wish to go there ' , and alhamdulillah everything was eased by Him. I shall tell more when I have the time to share.

We stayed there for 7days. On the last day, it was the saddest day every. I ululated terribly after our last Tawaf (tawaf Wida'/selamat tinggal). Tears couldn't stop. Heart was in pain. Pain to bid goodbye. I cried and cried and prayed that this will not be my last. And if this is my last, so replace it with heaven, O'Allah.