first trimester

It wouldn't be that bad, I thought..

And when the symptoms start coming...

The nausea and vomiting as some referred to morning sickness, mine was evening.

It first came at 6 weeks. First time, oddly, I smiled and laughed gleefully feeling so proud to have the symptom ! Common symptoms everyone has in pregnancy and I have it too!! A proof that there's a miracle growing inside of me..

But after few episodes of sickness, no.more.smiles. Mine was not that bad but I had them. Maybe once or twice tops per day, and it occured every other day or 2 days free before the sickness reappear.

I had food aversions too! Curry was a definite NO ! up till now after passing 1st trimester, I had a lil phobia with curry and usually takes them very lil.

I was a seafood lover but not anymore when pregnant. I can eat but I dont go craze about it.

I love sup daging even at my 1st trimester. But at current, sup daging is a bit geli for my throat. LoL..

Thank god my love to chocolate never changed ;-)

I cannot take lamb. I took once a month back, and I ended with a bad throbbing headache with 5days of fever. very
very.bad.

Cravings?? no! but choosy, very much yea.

Sense of smell heightened especially during first 3months. Food smells were nauseating. Some people dislike perfumes, and some even hates their husband's smell or presence? hahaha. that thankfully did not occur ;-) more attach ada la. *batlashes*

Fatigueness were full blown. Daily normal activity just made me really tired. I guess that critical development time took a hugr sum of energy from the mother huh? I even felt like a grandma, slept at 9pm everyday but still feel not adequate the next morning.

Emotional wise.. hmm.. I easily let down tears and I am not the person that teared easily. Movies like step up revolution, the part where the girl danced alone for final audition? i.teared.a.bit. hahaha! only at that. Being extra cranky or angry or irritable, not so much. Feels the same like before.

Everybody experienced them differently even after multiple times getting pregnant, they always have something different to share everytime ♥

Alhamdulillah after first trimester has passed, energy were back to normal, no more nausea and vomiting, not so choosy and sense of smells were handle-able. All smiles

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UPT positive and first trimester

I had an instinct that I might be baking a bun in my oven since 1st week of May. At that time, I went for my usual gym routine. When I was on the threadmill, I could not run. Any attempt to run, my lower abdomen cramped&cried in pain. I did not push further because we were planning to have one and I suspect I am.

Later, I frequently have lower abdominal pain and back pain. Especially when Im working . Taking patient's bloods were a huge burden coz bending is painful and achy..

Only 2-3 weeks later when my period missed a week, my urine test had a vague positive line. Worried if i might be hallucinating, I double confirmed with my husband's eyes hehe..

Planned was to see an obgyn end of june cause at least at that time, a heartbeat will be there. Unfortunately, I had red-brownish staining a week after my urine tested positive.

I was diagnosed to have a threatened miscarriage , which means the baby is threatened and that doctor gave me 50-50% chance since no heartbeat could be detected (too early scan)

Ijul and I were extremely worried. Worried so much and prayed to Allah as He knows the best. My BHCG was really convincing and at least that little nut is in my uterus and not somewhere outside.

I was on bed rest. Waiting game were no fun. A week later, my private obgyn scanned and saw a small clot in btwn my uterus and the decidua(which will bcome placenta later). This condition is called subchorionic haemorrhage and it seemed to be normal according to my obgyn coz there is always a possibility a part of it got dettached during excessive movements or unknown reasons, bleed and formed a clot. But good news was we saw a heartbeat !

A week later I repeated scan at my hospital, they don't seemed to see any clots but since staining still present, I was allowed to rest.

I had 2 days of bleeding, more than just stains and that freaked out a bit. But positive thinking, since I had no cramps, i did not see any products coming out, I thought maybe the clot is bleeding out and hence it bleed more. The clot has to come out to allow proper attachment .. oh god, knowing so much is seriously a major problem !!!!

After that , just stains for almost a month. Too worried sampai tak worried dah.. in the end , just leave it to Allah.

I resumed work after 3+wks of rest, and that is not easy. The more i walk and longer i stand, stained were more. I get lower abdominal cramps due to excessive walk and when I rest for a while , eg sitting in labor room (when nobody is in labor) , I was labelled lazy.. sigh :'( but I dont blame them, they don't know what i am going through at that time and i dont plan to share since it was my first week of new dept, tagging somemore (7am-10pm work) .. i did not want people to label me having excuses just because i am pregnant.

But alhamdulillah, 2nd week of work, no more stained. And now I am at my 21 weeks. Baby is active , Alhamdulillah ;-)

To be cont.

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Syawal wishes ;)

Selamat Hari Raya !!! 
Hope it is not too late to wish ;) How's Syawal for all of u ? It was HECTIC for me !!!! I only had holiday on the 4th and 5th raya.
On the 1st day of Raya, I worked at night from 10pm-10am the next day, hence I get to spend my 1st day Raya with family.. We covered 7 houses on that day !!! No naps the whole day :(( I was pretty knackered top to bottom. Was incharged in labor room. Prayed so hard I get to atleast sleep.. Alhamdulillah, the last labor was at 11pm , and the next patient came in at 430am. I get to sleep for a bit alhamdulillah :)

My sibs with his ;)

2nd day raya was the day I came back from my night duties. Went raya as usual but slept early as 3rd day Raya I worked at 7am till 2pm.. HECTIC HUHHHHH...

On 4th day Raya, my mom's side of the family organised a family day at Gold coast, Morib. 

Tokmak and her granddaughters (not all in the pic)

Family day was great. But I could not do anything much.. EHEM.. saw that small bump? or realized me looking a little bit chubby? HAHAHAHA

Yes yes.. Alhamdulilah, hot bun is cooking in my oven.. wootszzz !! we are expecting ;)
Today, baby has turned 20 weeks / 5 months ;) Starting to appreciate movements more since last week..

Hence, the reason why I could not do anything much.
No theme park. No beach in the evening. No running. No sports activities.. hMmmm.. Boring laa a bit but for the baby and me, wtvr it takes ;)

Will share more about my pregnancy insyaAllah. So far, Alhamdulilah smooth sailing..

2 more weeks before we end syawal ;) enjoy every bits of it ya !

Till then, XOXO

updates

Ramadhan is nearing to end. I hope everybody gets what they seeked for in this Ramadhan, InsyaAllah. I know some of my friends have changed to be better during this Ramadhan and I am so proud of them, wishing the same changes to occur to me too ! (ehem, hijab =) ) InsyaAllah. It will start somewhere just need some strong initiation and persistence.

I have entered a new department since 2nd of July- obstetric and gynecology (obgyn) . All about women and their reproductive organs. Initially I don't quite liking the vibe but after a month plus there, I'm getting the hang of it. It is a nice posting but not something I would love to do/deal with day in and out. In short,  I will not consider specialising in this area. No specific reasons, just no interest that's all.

That is what housemenship is all about. You like it or not, you have to work around it and deal with it for 4 months per posting and pray that you will not be extended more than 4 months. and ofcourse, learn as you go and gain as many experiences as you could. One thing I dislike is when it is my last month posting, when everything is just at the tip of finger, when everyone around you are like family, when you feel belong and comfortable---> at the end , you got to bid farewell and start all over again for the next posting. Adapt, learn, get the hang of it. EUWWW hate.

I am in obgyn and yes, I can conduct delivery =) /sambut baby/beranakkan orang etc etc heh..

I have also turned 25 on 25th of July. Since it was during fasting month, and on that date husband and I had berbuka at his aunt's place  with his family and cousins, we had a small celebration there. Ibu (MIL) bought a nice Hagen-dazs ice-cream cake and everything was sweet and simple. A birthday song, a cake and a candle. =)



My family planned to celebrate later since I had plans on 25th,  but hmmmmm.. I guess they must have forgotten about it after few days has passed. LOLS! most importantly, I've received prezzy from hubby, ibu and mama ;)) oh, and from my brother all the way from Uk. heh =0)

Speaking of my birthday, I have this expectations that people who are closed to me, must wish. I don't fancy belated but that is better than no wish at all.

My bestfriend who I've known since nastional service, Alia. She never fails to wish me birthday yearly at 12midnight sharp! When hubby and I were boyfriend-girlfriend, he and Alia berebut to wish me. Even up to now ! hehe. I am truly feel blessed. But this year, I zonked out at 9pm on the 24th of July. The next morning, I saw missed calls from Alia at 0000hrs. and then she messaged saying how sad she were not being able to be the first. T.T

I have another bestfriend who forgets my birthday this year.....

All relationship have their ups and downs. When we were miles away apart, I could feel the distance then. But there were efforts to meet and catch up and there goes the saying that "bestfriends remain the same even after months of silence" or something like that. It did feel that way. She was there when I needed her and vice versa ..

This year, it got more pronounced. Not sure if being married was the reason so, but she declined few hangout dates , she's not the kind that message/bbm so not much of update basically.. and she missed my birthday. She realised so when one of our bestfriend reminded her.-___-

This post was not to convey any message to her ,don't think she even knows I have a blog, No intentions to make anyone feel bad.

The message I am trying to convey is that, A relationship without an effort, will just floats away.
It takes two to tango, two hands to clap, two wings to fly.

I am not angry. Just sad pondering upon how many of my friends would actually care about the ship we sailed together once everybody owns so many ships along the way. I care.

Ringing one year today !

It is 1st of july !! Our 1 year anniversary today , Alhamdulillah !!

Time flies , but nevertheless each moments spent together as a husband and wife were great !

A year together, we have learnt a lot. We have learned to live together, to tolerate each other and how to make one another happy .

This year anniversary has not much celebration do. I did plan for something but due to unavoidable circumstances, and weekend filled with occasions and weddings, I paused that plan . Postponed.

Knowing my husband, who is not a romantic cliche guy, I expected the least. But even so, he has his own sweetness that I would not trade any other.

After clock striked 12 midnight, after we wished each other, he suddenly commanded ..

'Sayang, tolong amekkan blazer dlm robok (almari). Saya nak gantung skali dgn seluar ni.. '

Me : jap ehhh..
Him : cepat la

*Shocked*

Me: aikk, baru a year dah mcm ni ..

Went to the cupboard to fetch his hanged blazer. Complained how high the hanger is and heavy !!

After retrieving the hanger with effort, I saw a samsung plastic bag hanged inside the blazer together.

*grinned*

Him: for u sayang

Saw galaxy s3 fone in blue

*speechless, broke to tears* (emotional ezyana)

Him : aikk dapat hadiah pun nangiss..

I apologized for not having anything prepared, no gift for him.. And his reply made me even more teared.

During the day, we went out for a date. Just like old times :)

I love u so much sayang. Not because of samsung galaxy s3, but simply because I love YOU !

Happy 1 year anniversary to us and may we be blessed with more and more anniversaries to come, together. InsyaAllah.
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fitness is not first

I've joined fitness first in December last year. Thanks to my sister . I was only consistent for 3 months when my sister, Eryanie was around but not anymore...

I.HAVE.NOT.BEEN.GOING.TO.GYM

Reason why I joined gym in the first place was not to burn fats but to gain some muscle and so it would add up to my weight. Apart from that, I really need some cardio to keep fit, endorphins, some good body tone especially abdominal and pelvic tone and to spend time with my sister (at that time)

But after she left, and when I started medical posting , it was impossible to find time for gym.

Medical was a very very tiring posting which I enjoyed learning but not being tired. I often skipped meals and that did not help with gym after work.

I freezed my account for 3 months in total now and thought of transfer it to someone who will make full use of it. And for another reason too , it is better to stop.

Don't think it is worth committing anymore.

Sayonara gym ;) I think I'll enjoy green then machine

Condominium

Condominium pretty expensive these days , yes?

Their space are quite limited, and if you prefer the units with more rooms, it will be more expensive . Limited parkings with too rigid security are not quite fancynating .

Of course there are affordable ones which are not too bad condition but the high-ends once are too too too expensive !

( But their offers are quite tempting , no? )

I have always been siding for landed house. Safety wise can't be compare to condominium but atleast it is on the ground ! Need not to worry if my kids suddenly act all superman with superpowers etc2.

I can have my own kitchen without worrying the whole unit might smell ! Rooms and living areas . Playground nearby and I can have guests coming unlimited .

Most of the time that I observe,the bungalow houses costs the same as high-end condos .

Too over-rated and over-priced condos. Serious.




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