below 200

I've got two numbers. One from celcom and the other from DIGI which I applied just few months back. Celcom is under my dad's office since we applied in bulk and they'd promise us a good service & plans & payment .. I've been with celcom since Form 2 (14 years old).

Since Celcom has always been under my dad, I couldn't care much. Until.... I received calls from my dad nagging and complaining on my usage. And, that was during kiddo-years when phone is the "in-thing" and to use a handphone is "cool" ..

Last year or maybe a year and a half ago, I applied for BIS (blackberry internet service) under celcom and since then I monitored my bills. Not directly monitoring, but through my dad's secretary.

What upsets me was when I clearly told them that I wanted an unlimited service, but they charged me as per used for that month. I called them and demanded for unlimited service, and so they charged as 'unlimited' then.

However, my bills are still high ! When all I used were BBM, Whatsapp, Facebook, and few sms-es and local calls for not more than 12hours a month. Ridiculously high!

Despite of these problems, I refused to change to other than celcom.

Ijul gave me a handphone last year on my birthday, and it gave me an idea to have two numbers :) and so, I took Digi for my second line.

Digi provides the best offer as far as I've surveyed. Unlimited internet for rm68 + rm10 for BIS. and I grabbed it without thinking further. Because I know, Maxis & Celcom offered more than rm100 for unlimited internet + BIS .

Since I took Digi for internet & BIS, I asked Kak Ena (dad's secretary) to cancel my BIS plan under Celcom. When I checked my bill a month after cancellation, it was still HIGH ! I remembered I didn't use much , and still get scolded from my Dad since it was extremely HIGH ! I nearly chocked when I heard the figure !!

I called CELCOM center and they said tht my plans are still active.. and, even if I didn't cancel BIS, it is impossible to have a bill THAT HIGH. totally ridiculous.

I called Kak ena , wanted to attack her but I hold it back. I asked if she did cancel my BIS. She said she did. However, no black and white confirmation. and I asked her to help me re-check.........

True enough, that officer didn't cancel the plan. and so after, plan was cancelled. BUT, bills still not up to my expectation. HELLO? I am not using INTERNET nor BIS .. just SMS , and not much calls.. above rm200 is simply RIDonkeyLOUS.

Asked for a favor from Kak ena. and she checked for me and do you know what these buggers did......??? *long sigh*...

*huge sigh*

They added another plan into my whatever plans I had initially minus the BIS. -_- without my permission...

I was eeeeeeeeeeeeee angry lerr.. Though it wasn't me who is paying , but I was a lil concern with my bills ..

Kak Ena cancelled on wtvr plans they simply added..

and today, Kak ena smsed my bill for this month and alhamdulillah, I managed to safe ! rm150 ! that is definitely rare.. Usually, it always exceed rm200.. Use or not much of usage. weird..!

Digi has been really kind to me and 78 per month for many many BBMs , whatsapp, and facebook is really worth it ! and I still keep my celcom. For the sake of loyalty , ehem ;))

I could barely open my eyes.. and so, goodnight everyone ;)

to understand is to read..

As I grew older, from a teenager to adolescent to young adult, I started to have deep thoughts about everything. It started of when my non-muslim friends asked me about Islam. Some I could answer, but most are with gaps and holes and with a "maybe" ..

I dislike myself. Its my religion and why am I not well equipped?

I prayed for guidance. I have so many questions in mind but hesitated to ask. A "maybe" is never my likening.

During my stay in Mekkah, on the 5th day, I went Subuh alone, since my mom headed early for Qiam. I saw my line was partially full hence I called these 2 ladies who were just about to sit behind my line, to sit next to me so that my line will not be empty.

After Subuh we chatted. I enjoyed talking to Aunty Nurul. She reminded me of my Bahasa Melayu tuition teacher when I was in primary 6. We chatted and mostly about Islam.

It started of with how Islam is actually simple and sometimes, the community makes it complicated. She added that she follows the Quran, Sunnah & authentic Hadith.

What attracts me was when she said,

" There is no 'maybe' in Islam. It is either yes, or no. And there is no need to do extra things. What is permitted for us to do, we do. example, Rasulullah (saw) washed his face once, twice or thrice but never 5 - 6 times. "

She added,

" what is more important than praying is to ponder upon Allah's creation & wonders. "

.. Her words just made me calmer and settled.

She recommended me a few books. The three of us went to the book shop after asar that day , and she adviced me to buy "Bulugh-Al-Maram" ..

I never heard of this book but it contains the Al - Quran, Sunnah Rasulullah (saw) and authentic hadith. I glanced tru it and every chapter about solat, fasting, water for purification, marriage & etc.. every single thing, day to day practice, is there.

I also bought Islamic guidelines on Medicine, a DVD of Syeikh Yusuf Estes, just one of the episode since I never heard of him but heard good reviews of him. And aunty Nurul also gave me a book for daily wirid as a gift. So sweet of her.

I've read Bulugh-Al-Maram. Not entirely, but few chapters of it.

Comments- A very very very good book ! It explains in details. A very good reference and guidance. Now, I have attained a little understanding on what I'm doing. Not just do for the sake of doing it. And most importantly, no more confusion between Religion & Tradition.

I would strongly adviced all Muslims and to those interested in Islam, to get that book. Bulugh al-Maram. You can get it in any Muslim Book shops e.g. dawah corner, PJ.

I am not pious. However, it is never wrong to learn and understand more. and I hope you would do the same ;)

Alhamdulillah, truly am glad to meet Aunty Nurul & Kak wan :)

it was my first. best holiday ever !

13 mac 2011, my parents & I went to Mekkah for Umrah, and it was my first. We said our 'niat' few minutes before the plane passes Qanulmunazil. In Jeddah, our plane landed at the Hajj terminal due to the high numbers of people entering Jeddah for Umrah at that time.

after arrival @ the Hajj Terminal, Jeddah Airport

From afar, on the way to the hotel, I had a glimpse of Masjidil Haram, the unduly special Mosque to all Muslims. It contains the Kaabah, Allah's house and its the 'kiblat' where our directions of prayers are. It is the place where all prayers goes direct line to God.

The glimpse of it palpitates me. My mind goes blank. Excited and afraid, mixed. It was just a few seconds before we enter the tunnel to enter the Hotel.

On 2nd day , after Subuh Prayers. One of the buildings is ZamZam Hotel

As we reached Zam Zam Hotel, we gathered our bags, prepared for prayers & umrah and off to Masjidil Haram. Just a 5 minute walking distance. Took a lift down from the hotel lobby and walked for a few steps and THERE it is, masjidil haram standing right infront of our eyes.

In PJs for Subuh prayers , wrapped in Jubah ;) Masjidil Haram

While walking towards the entrance, i started tearing up . Palpitated again. My nose clogged with secretions. My mind was blanked except for one thing, to meet Allah.

Of course we pray everyday, but at that point of time, praying in front of Kaabah was totally

different and it definitely felt special.

As I enter , I say a lil prayer by following the book as a guidance to us (a doa while entering masjidil haram). I walked further in, and there I saw infront of my eyes, the Kaabah.

Allah hu akhbar, Allah hu akhbar, Allah hu akhbar.

It rained on the 3rd & 4th day

speechless.

After zhur, Mom & I went to circumambulate (tawaf) the Kaabah 7 rounds.

Tears didn't stop running down this cheek. I felt honored to be one of Allah's guest. I felt extremely small. I seek forgiveness wholeheartedly and asked for many many things as only He knows the future.

Niat. Tawaf. Sai'e. Tahalul.

These are the rukun for umrah. Alhamdulillah it went smoothly. My legs ache after 1st time umrah. Subsequent Umrah, it felt nothing. No complains of any ache anywhere.

3rd Umrah, after completed Sai'e

View from my Uncle's appartment when we pay Tok Chom a visit. Beautiful !

I love Mekkah so much ! The Masjidil Haram's mosque is never empty. People circumambulate the Kaabah every seconds ! This is the city that never sleeps, for only the good purpose. To pray to Allah.

In mekkah, only Muslims are allowed to enter. I see various people from everywhere across the globe. I may not know who you are or where you are from (except for when you're wearing a beg with country flags etc) but I know one thing, you're a muslim.

Few minutes before the praying time, jemaah starts to walk to the mosque. Shopkeeper starts closing their shops. I've only read it in books that they close their shops during praying time but there, I see in reality.

All shops are closed. Malls are not empty but shops are closed. People walking through the malls to the mosque. People who are late, do their jemaah outside the mosque stretching to the roadside and inside the malls.

Jemaah outside the mosque

Everybody respects praying time there. Here, we see people still commencing their work and duty. They still pray but not at the earliest after the Azan.

There, when it is azan time, everybody goes to Masjidil Haram and pray. Except for maybe the receptionist at the hotel.

Another reason I fell in love with this place is because everybody is so focused, including myself to pray and to devote self wholly to Allah.

Prayers go on a highway, direct line to Allah. Just ask, and He will make it true, insyaAllah. And because of that, we had to watch everything we say or do or think. Because Allah is nearest to us there and things do come true in a blink.

our 3rd umrah.

I asked for many many things and some did come true just after saying it.. e.g. ' I wish to go there ' , and alhamdulillah everything was eased by Him. I shall tell more when I have the time to share.

We stayed there for 7days. On the last day, it was the saddest day every. I ululated terribly after our last Tawaf (tawaf Wida'/selamat tinggal). Tears couldn't stop. Heart was in pain. Pain to bid goodbye. I cried and cried and prayed that this will not be my last. And if this is my last, so replace it with heaven, O'Allah.

BIG NEWS !!

*clears throat*

*drum rolls*

Now..... you can call me Dr. Ezyana Hani Mohd Effandie m.b.b.s (MAHE) ..

WOOTS !!

Feelings I had when I heard the news were simply priceless & indescribable. Surreal. It's one of the things that I really wanted since I was a small kid, and now, I am what I want to be. Not only my dream, but my parents' too. Alhamdulillah.

My dad once told me when we were riding down south, that when I was 3 DAYS - old, he talked to his lil daughter, telling her that when she's all grown up, she will be a doctor.

I at that time, "respond" with a babble. God knows what I was saying at that time. I've no idea if there is any relation or significance to what I've achieved but I do believe that whatever you say, is a prayer.

Since small, my parent has always encouraged me in becoming a doctor. If you ask me before I enter medical school, I could not picture myself other than becoming a doctor. Guess my mind has already pre-set too. I don't regret the path I've chosen and InsyaAllah, even how tough life may be in future, I will not regret and take everything as a lesson to be learned.

Through out my 3weeks torture with back to back examinations, my parent, mom especially has been praying day-night for me. I do my prayers too but I needed theirs more. and Alhamdulillah, prayers has eased me to overcome the difficulties.

Eventhough I've received my degree, a "DR." , nothing could repay a parents' love, shelter, care , safety & support. I couldn't thanked them much for what they've given me. I love them both ! and I thank you my adik adik and others who had pray and wish me during my exams. Thank YOU !!

Family dinner after I've received the results on the 5th Mac 2011 ;)