bye bye 2012 .. hello 2013 !

Major life events in ...
2011 : a doctor and a wife
2012 : embracing pregnancyhood
2013 : motherhood? in sha Allah.

Every year new year's resolution would be to become a better person but I think I need to be more specific than just 'better' ..

This year's (2012) NY resolution, I planned to save up more and my aim was to add 1/5 of my salary to my ASB everymonth but -- i failed ! I usually keeps them and do one lam-sam so that I don't have to go back and forth to the bank but keeping them means spending them too !! :((((((((((
And when I had the time to go this month, it has already closed for divident count etc2.. SAD !
My aim was to have certain amount by end this year but I was not near to half :(

Becoming a better cook was another resolution.. I cooked but i would not consider myself a great one YET ! To invite people to come and eat at my place is a nerve-wrecking. I am not confident at all with my cooking yet.. so.. another resolution not 100% fully achieved.

I could not remember the others but to compare with the year before, life pretty much settled in 2012. Things handled better, and I have learned to control myself better.

Just one issue -> i'm having this emotional blunting for the past 2-3 months maybe? I'm not sure if pregnancy has anything to do with it but if the emotions hit me, I weep like a baby .. I am not kidding.
Oh well, positive thinking would be it is just me protecting myself from being overtly emotional with the hormones at its peak.

This year I want to be really specific with my resolution.
1) I want to learn and be expert at cooking what Ijul likes for raya -- rendang, lontong, that yellow kuah (lodeh was it?) , that kuah kacang .. Laksa johor - eventhough it's the family's favorite, husband is first now so... gotta learn this one !!
2) I want to become a better muslimah. Even how busy I would be, I have to try to make it for solat and try as much as I could not to miss every waktu (quite a problem this year) .. &  Maybe qatam another round this year ? In sha Allah
3) To don hijab in sha Allah
4) When baby is here -> I will not nag when baby cry all the time, I will not complain when baby is cranky, I will not let bibik do stuff for my baby when im not working (except washing clothes/diapers), i don't want bibik around when i jalan2 with baby and hubs (vacay/shop), hmmmm so much more ! I want to be the first to bath (that is quite impossible cause the nurse in the hospital will be the FIRST !!)

I want to be the first to kiss -> also quite impossible .. Ijul will for sure hover around the baby and me? --> mmmmmmmmm.. waiting for doctor to be done repairing my perineum or waiting for the observation period to be done so I could be transfered out to normal ward..

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm..

it's okay. maybe the first to wean the kid at 6months, and hopefully the 1st to see the kid taking the 1st step unsupported ;))

okay since he is the 1st cucu and nephew for both families , nobody can bring him out from KL/Selangor area until I do .. I want to be the first, ok bye !

okay next...
5)I  need to register for my masterprogramme !! atleast to sit for one in June in sha Allah.
I'm quite certain I love paediatric.. Eventhough my knowledge is still poor due to lack of reading but passion is there. That is most important.
Why paeds ??? hmmm I don't know. I feel very sincere working in that department. Never complained. Always loving it eventhough I'm now what people called sarat , I loved it there.
6) Umrah with husband
7) Save up more !!!

That are my aims for next year :)
May Allah ease and bless each steps. in sha Allah.

Happy New Year ;))